**27 Aug 2008

Long time nv updated liao, on 21 Aug 2008 something bad happen. My darling mum pass away due to something. I was actually having my dinner @ Geylang for my Frog Leg Porridge but when I was having halfway, my darling msg mi said her mum is in danger doc ask the whole family to go dwn. I was very worry, & sense not right so I keep calling my darling. Den my darling msg mi her mum pass away, I quickly called her to console her, den I dun wan to eat le I rush down to TTSH for her. When I reached thr, the moment I saw her I hug her cos she cry very badly. Den my nedphew hug mi say "Ah Ma die liao" den I quickly hug him.. I go & c her mother after that, her mum was peacefully pass away.. I saw her brother, her bro was more sad dn anyone. Den after doing everything, I acc my darling to her In Law house, den we nv slp but till 4am we go slp cos the next morning we got to wake up very early.. The next morning we wake up, my darling mother in law cook hot dog & fish fillet for us, so gd wake up got food to eat.. So envy her. Den after eating, we rushed down to Darling mother aMK house to wait for the funeral ppl to come to tent up the things. Until dunno what time, the casket ppl tk her mum body come to prepared everything... Her family was very sad, I can see...I acc her till Sun everything over.. I will cut short, the rest I leave to my Darling to fill den i go cut & paste.. Her blog is under my blog link..
Updated again..

Story regarding 亲梅竹杩

This is a story bout 2 person who grow up together everyone tot they will married as they r 亲梅竹杩. do u all have 亲梅竹杩? Is long so read patiently as some sentences is quite confused. Sorry bout that.. Actually their story is long is I cut short, is based on true story... Their name is W & J..

W & J was being look after by a same nanny since they r baby as both their parents is busy wrking. They played together even Kindergarden, Primary school they nv leave each other..They even had a vow that when they grow up if either one of them is 27 both of them is single they will married. Untill they went to secondary school, they went to different school. Things had changed.
That was when they r 14 years old I think ba.. J has a new bf, W was happy for J. J shared everything with W regarding she & her bf. There is one day J quarrel with her bf, so J called up W. After hearing what happen W went to J house to console her. W lend J his shoulder to cry on, after J had cry finish, W try to homour her & J laughed. The next day, J patch up with her bf. So their life just carry on, & sumtimes J will mit up W for Dinner or Lunch. W had a gf too, J was happy for him too. Soon J get married with shotgun, so she informed W must attend her wedding but yet he can't attend. So J was very disappointed. J was not happy in her wedding so she divorced with her husband, J was sad so J tink of W but she scared that W gf will not be happy, so J just call up & ask how is W, but W sense somthing is not right, so W just tell J to wait at her house for him. W leave his gf at his house to look for J. J was touched but feel guilty as she know that W gf at his house. There is one night, J was being peep by a Peeping Tom so she shouted den she quickly called up W but when she called up W, W gf answer the call, so J decided not to tell W le, she just hang up but W called up in the end it must be his gf tell him. After J told him everything, W want to come over J place but end up he quarrel with his gf, so J ask W not to come..So they have not been contact anymore onli once in a month to ask how is each other. W broke off with his gf.. So he went to J house to wait for J back home.. When both of them talk halfway, W suddenly confessed to J: "I love u since young, I always think of u, I see u sad my heart will pain, I dun mind you have a kid, I just wan to be with u." J stunned a few seconds & tell W he is just joking right?? Den suddenly W kissed J, J pushed him away & say it is too sudden she can't accept it. From that night onwards, J start to avoided W but W keep calling J & J did not want to answer the call. So W give up.. So is been a year, J has not heard bout W anymore onli heard her family that W has a new gf.. J was quite sad. Though J had a few relationship but all seems can't last long. Till one day, J went home & saw W with his new gf. J did not say hello to him, she just went straight to her room, after closing a room she feel she can't breathe & feel pain in her heart, den she now den realised that she had fall in love with W too, but everything is too late. So they just carry on with her life.
Few months later, W called up J & ask for dinner. So J agreed as she wanna see him too, J wanted to ask him is he still with his gf but W seems not in a gd mood so she did not ask. So they have a dinner on the first day. W fetch J everyday, it was like bf fetch gf from work. J did not sense anyting as wen they was young W oso do that, after school they will mit up for lunch or dinner. One day, W told J he is getting married, J was so shocked & look at W slowly. W hold J hand & said: "I getting married liao, do u love mi, do you wanna be with mi, if u love mi I will call off the wedding now. You know I love u, till now I still love u, pls, pls tell mi." J let go his hand & laughed. Although J wan to accept him but she do not wan to hurt W gf. So she said to him & laughed: "hahaha, dun be silly, we r friends onli, & very very gd friends. I dun love u at all, be a gd husband & father in future. hahaha" den J ask W to send her home, on the way they did not say anything just keep quiet until reached J house J look at him & said: "Promise mi no matter wat we r always best friends & buddy. Be a gd husband" after W promise her, she just get off the car & go home. Wen J reach home, J cry loud, she cannot dure it anymore she feel very hurt.
Finally W get married, still rem before W married. W was online so do J, W send a music video clip to J, & ask J not to forget him, J promised..
Is been a year le, J heard from her family that W is going to be a father soon, J felt happy to know that W is very 幸福..

The end.

Nightmare

On Wed 6 of Aug is a nightmare to mi, I do not know wat to do... Just feeling lost.. I feel like just end up my life like that, den I tink of my darling, Mary.. I cannot cos I nid to protect her & my bao bei leh.... i just feel is a nightmare, I wun go club myself liao, I muz have ppl acc mi go. Ytd I did not go wrk, Boss ask mi to rest @ hm, not to tink too much so I nv go wrk or out, I just stay @ hm do nothing. I keep tinking of the secenrio I start to get scared...This is the most serious problem I ever had.. If not for tat idiot I will keep tinking of gg clubbing meh? Wen is my Xin Fu arriving, my sis husband coming out today, she muz be very happy. I'm so happy for her... From the days I drop my Thai amulet "Tangga", I knew sumting will b happen, & now is reali happen liao lo. In future I oso dunno wat will happen liao I'm so scared & worried. After that thing happen, I started to be quiet & dun feel like toking to anyone..I scared ppl will say I deserved it, cos is I go clubbing ma... Tts y I rather keep inside my heart. Tonight I watching Movies yeah, watching "Money not Enough 2" heard is not a very gd show but different ppl different taste. I may be like it or hate it..

Got to wrk now.. Updated again wen I'm free, too busy as taking other ppl Job scope..

**1st Aug 2008

Today is a new month, & is 1st day Hell Door open.. Dunno my dad got cum out or not. Last night pray till quite late & I cant slp @ all know y, cos I miss my dad. Nomarlly is I help him to burn the Insense Paper but now is mi & my bro. I told myself not to cry, but the scenerio keep caming to my mind on the day how he pass away. We dun even have the chance to tok to him or see him go.. My darling, Mary her mother is in the hospital of lots of illness this is I oso know, cos mi & her know so mani years liao, her mum just like my mum.. I wanted to go mit my darling, is not I dun wan, got ppl ask mi Y never mit her, my reason is she confirm cry & if she cry I confirm cry. She should noe, & if I make her laugh I scared she might tink tt I nv treat her problem seriously. We r Angel & Devil y things happen to us like tt??? First is mi Y now is my darling?? I dun understand.

Dear God, if u wanna punish, just punish mi alone not my darling Mary Huang Y***... You already taken Angel dad awa, u still wanna tk away Devil Mum away meh??? No u cant do that.. We wun mess up the world, we will be gd gal...Angel & Devil have been sister for so mani year liao, this things is everyone know. Though we r far apart but our heart is Linked. God pls blessed us. I love my daddy & Mummy..

My Darling Devil, u always hide things from mi, u tink I nv care meh, is I dun wan c u sad, & I'm always wrk till so late, even can go out time is late night.. Our heart is linked.. Dun u dare to forget.. Har??? Dun tink too much.. I love u mucks... Rem wat I put in Friendster Angel & Devil r sister forever...

**29 May 08

Hmm, updated lo.. I feel so tired lo, slp for 1 hour onli ba I tink.. Tt A****** lo, nv let mi slp.. I was @ wrk plc like a half dead, I can go act "Land of the Dead"... Hooo, keep yawning lo. Tink is ytd go Power House ba, drink like hell lo. But luckily nv do any disgraceful things, haha...

I met him, though he is not handsome but he make mi feel comfortable wen I'm near him. Tts is wats ppl call feel ba. Let time slowly go, den slowly we will know.. Is I'm scared oso as to mi thr is no such thing is forever.. Just let it natural.. I'm feel happy but sumtimes upset.. No money of cos, sianz..

I feel happy for my Bro now, he found himself a gf, is gd but sumtimes make mi jealous icos he treat mi nt like last time tt gd liao. but of cos attitude is beta wen he is toking to mi.. Wow, my future sister in law muz be toking gd things in front of him.. Thanks to her..

Dear father,

Since u pass away last year Nov till now, almost 7 months le, hw r u now? Did God tk care of u well, I ask God to tk care of u tink he will do that.. I tell him u r my onli Daddy, & hope u r well taken care. U dun worry bout mi, there is someone taking care of mi.. I know if u r around, u will ask mi not to trust guys easily, but I know is my own choice of that.. Pa, since Ah Ma know u hv pass away, she sad everyday. @ 1st she cry everyday now beta liao, but I didnt dare to visit her cos I scared that if she saw mi & Kor kor, she will cry again, Uncle has kept all yr photos tt prevent her to miss u & cry again.. Mummy is ok, still doing the same things, look @ 4D & toto, this is wat u & her always do.. I can sense Mummy miss u alot, she put yr photo in yr wallet. Someone told mi he saw his parents stil loving till now, he felt happy for them , I oso wish u still alive to b wif Mummy, & not tt bitch that u keep outside.. I dun blame u for cheating Mummy cos u r my dad.. Forever in my heart.. I love u dad..
God, Pls tk care of my dad if u saw him. Thank You God..

**22 Dec 2007

Oh Gosh, now I have a big problem. Today is my Dad 49 days, mi & my Bro was busy preparing. My Grandma wanted to come home from my Aunitie house, she say she is boring there & wanna come back, even my uncle oso cannot do anything. I already burst out, I do not know wat to do, we onli can do is to avoid her. I dunno wat will happen if she noe about it, maybe faint or crazy or something more worst which I do not wish to happen. Anyone can tell mi wat to do, I reali dunno wat to do. I cannot tk anymore blow, I will get crazy. Today my Dad got come back, I rem I was putting the chopsticks for him is straight & open abit, den 5 mins later I go see wat did I forget den I realised that the chopsticks was slant, den I ask my Brother did he move the chopsticks he say no, den few hours later , my Brother ask mi to look @ a very shocking things is the chopsticks become straight together & close up like he was telling us he had eat finish.. I swear I did not touch the chopsticks.

Pa, if u reali got things to tell mi or Kor, pls go to our dream. Pls pray for Ah ma & Mummy oso.. From baby till now I nv told u b4 I love u. I know that I keep toking back to u as u always dun tok nicely to mi, I know u care, worry & dote mi, is I dun listen other ppl advice, now I got this kind of bao Yin. I know u been worry bout money, & family problem, I will try my best to go study, work harder. Pls take care in a place which u will never had worries. The Hell or Heaven Boss will help us to take care u . We love u & will rem u forever. As we never ever accept the facts that u r reali leaving us forever....

**21 Nov 2007

Today is a new day for mi, I was ready to wrk so I went to the bus stop as usual waiting for bus no 86. While waiting I was playing game but suddenly 86 came but it did not stop I was so blur & shocked den no choice got to tk a cab as I was late. Wen I reach plc oso as usual we gals go for breakfast, den we chit chat too. Out of sudden I miss my dad this morning, felt there is sumting missing of cos is my father, usually morning he will tok to mi, like telling mi to hurry up for wrk, or maybe buying breakfast for mi. I alrdy used to it having him ard, but now no more.
I sprained my right hands, my shoulder bone is so pain till I cant lift up now... Actually today I hv the mood to go clubbing but my hand like that now sian liao le, my partner very gd help mi massage hee, I so envy her bf, everytime got free massage. I've stop here, updated another time.