30 Sep 2007

Today I was tinking of someone.. He was wrking I scared I was disturbing him. @ night I went to AMK central to mit my sister, Devils, haha we r Angels & Devils leh. I was very Fan, feel no one understand mi, nobody reali knw wat I wan. I feel like drinking till I drunk den next day will b fine.. haha

29 sep 2007, sick day

Today I was so sick, having a stupid flu, nose damn itch. I didn't eat much cos I'm on diet tink I'm getting fat, but my sis say I not fat.. Today feel like gg out but wif some personal issue I can't go out. Haiz its ok cos I oso dun feel like gg out. No mood oso, dunno y feel so EMO this few days especially from wed after I cum bk frm DBL O, I was very drunk tt night. Dunno wat I tinking.... Maybe missing ??????? I was tinking my birthday wanna celebrate or not scared over my budget. I use 300 dollars to celebrate dunno can or not... C how 1st ba..
I was abit sad tt I feel my god daughter nv treat mi as her mummy, dunno Y leh, just hv the feel, but I still love her & dote her cos she the onli gal I keep as god daughter. Although sumtimes she rude & will tok nonsense other den tt is ok to mi rather den she act right. Tink stop here le, I wanna play game, haha

28 sep 2007 very angry day

Today I so angry, wen I reach my office I heard there is a training test as I was MC yesterday. Den 1 of my colleague told mi that there is a answer sheet done by my parnter Winnie, but Winnie told mi she pass to Brandon, den Brandon say he pass to my boss, den I go ask my boss he say he throw away. I was so angry that I dun wan to tok to him other den work things. & my colleagues too, some I nv tok to them. I feel they r selfish, nv told mi yesterday so that I can ask them to keep the paper for mi. They dun even tink of mi lor, I so angry till I dun feel like eating lunch wif them, I rather starve myself or go buy myself den eat wif them. They tink that is my own problem, so let mi do the test myself while they copy from each other. I so angry till my mood is very bad today....
I dunno should I tok to them even now I had finish the test. I nv tot they r so selfish...

True words from my heart.

My birthday is coming, I was wondering should I celebrate. I gg to celebrate wif my bro & sisters, I suddenly miss my youngers day, tink it is on my 15 or 16 years I already forget. We was @ Serangoon Garden 1 of the ktv there, we all gals no guys, I still rem the cake being throw on my face, its so fun. We all knw very long le, we do everyting together. All kind of funni tings, still rem the days we was staying @ Yishun. We cried, laugh, fight.... wen we no money & we share alot of things. Its was damn a gd memories, but now we grow up hv our own family, how I wish we nv grow up. I reali miss the days we gathering but now I dun tink there is a need. I just can't stand the way they was shunnin mi, or talking to mi. I knw in the past I nv attend birthday or Wedding dinner. Whenever I attend I comfirm wil kana suan, might as well I dun attend. Y they must treat mi like this? I know myself, I'm very sensitive I mght as well remain like tis, let u all forget mi or treat mi as you all gossip topics. I'm a divorcee ma, u all high educated, got cars, got goals, got ambition, got money to go overseas for holiday, u all expect high expectation, I'm not.... I not fit to b wif u all.
I rather let our memories to remain in my heart forever even inside to the coffin.

25 Sep 2007

I was late again, sucks man... Too tired le, got lot of shippment sianz... After wrk I go & mit my brother den my sis oso coming, she go & fetch my nephew from school. So we stay @ 721 awhile den we walk walk, as I wan to buy earring. While we gg to bus stop to go hm, my nephew was trying to make my sis angry, den my sis slap her, I was so shock til I keep blocking my nephew from the beating. After that @ interchange my sis beat my nephew again, I was not shock as I used to it, wat I can do is to block. If I quarrel wif her again, this time wil b worst. So I quiet as not to provoke her cos her pride is weak. Wen I reach hm already 9 pm, so I watch the drama show, til 10 I go slp.
My ex msg mi, but I dunno how to reply, so I nv reply I onli knw the last msg is he wanna patch up, but my hp no money le I using Hi-Card. Haiz, I go & slp le...

24 sep 2007

Today I was late for wrk, haiz too tired... Alot of shipment, luckily can do in time. After wrk I went to find my sisters which is I very close to. I c her got lot of problem but I do not knw how to help her. Headache... She is old enough le, as I told her that, dun do anyting foolish or anyhow trust ppl. I reach hm ard 10 sumting, its quite late. Wen I walk hm, I walk very fast cos I oso scared, haha.. I scared of KAKA... EEEEEekkk so horrible wat if I saw it, I tink I dun hv the strength to run straight away faint, haha... I miss my sisters I wish to like last time we gathering & do all kinds of tings....

23 sep 2007 Happi day

Today I go mit my sister, den I saw my Nu er (Goddaughter), she wif her friends. Den I saw my brother Raymond, we finally tok le. I happi tt he changing alot, maybe matured le ba, hopefully....den mi & Mary go walk walk but the shop closing le, we onli can c the shop closing, haha...Den we walk hm together trying to collect all the memories we lost for the last few months... haha, den I walk hm myself...

21 sep 07, boring day

Today I was late for my wrk, wen I reach my wrk plc my buddy nv cum for wrk, he MC.. I tink he is sick for the reason of studying, cos his exam is cuming.. @ my wrk plc , my sister msn mi, saying Y i not gg to her chalet, & I just told her I busy not free but actually is I dun feel like seein some ppl who last time we r very close. I was tinking am I too sensitive le.
I was happily to knock off, as tonight I wanted to go clubbing, but ????? wrking, & he go bugis leave mi @ hm, I angry wif him.. So I staying @ hm the whole nite, if I knw I should go & mit my sister MARY the devil haha... Sian i beta go & slp now le, otherwise I can b best friends with Panda....