**21 Nov 2007

Today is a new day for mi, I was ready to wrk so I went to the bus stop as usual waiting for bus no 86. While waiting I was playing game but suddenly 86 came but it did not stop I was so blur & shocked den no choice got to tk a cab as I was late. Wen I reach plc oso as usual we gals go for breakfast, den we chit chat too. Out of sudden I miss my dad this morning, felt there is sumting missing of cos is my father, usually morning he will tok to mi, like telling mi to hurry up for wrk, or maybe buying breakfast for mi. I alrdy used to it having him ard, but now no more.
I sprained my right hands, my shoulder bone is so pain till I cant lift up now... Actually today I hv the mood to go clubbing but my hand like that now sian liao le, my partner very gd help mi massage hee, I so envy her bf, everytime got free massage. I've stop here, updated another time.

**12 Nov 2007

Its been 8 days my dad leave us, I'm still not used to it. I used to have him to wake mi up early in the morning to go wrk. Although he is nagging but I already used to talk back to him & wen he is very angry I will b very happy. But now I reali regret of talking back to him, I should treat him nicer, is too late now he wun come alive anymore. Y this things will happen to mi & my family? My grandma still dunno anyting yet, she keep looking for my father, we got no choice to lie to her say that my dad go to KL to wrk, but my grandma seems dun believe it, Somemore my grandma dotes my dad the most. My grandma got to go back TTSH to check her heart on Dec 12, if she know bout this I dunno wat will happen, I cannot tk the 2nd blow... She is too old, I cant bear to lie to her oso, is no choice. I will leave my Auntie to break the news to my grandma.

Pa,

pls look after Ah Ma, she still dunno your things yet, Mummy oso cannot tk it, she been trying to control her tears in front of us, we know she is very sad.. if u are besides us, pls take care of Mummy. I'm sorry that I always make u angry, I will look after Mummy for u.

Yours dearest daughter
Meimei

***My saddest Day

On 4 Nov 2007, I would never forget this day.. I receive a call, saying my father was been sending to TTSH, few mins later I receive a call again, saying doctor wanna see us. Wen me & my brother reach the hosital we had a bad feeling. Wen we c the doc, the doc say sorry my father has pass away. My father was pass away as heart problem by drinking.. I was so shock that we burst out, so we waited awhile den we c our father body. He did not leave any words den just leave us, i keep shaking him, beat him, slapped his face he oso dun wan wake up, I just cut it short as I very sad le, & we prepared his funeral @ my house downstair for 3 days, my grandma still dunno yet, we cannot let her know as she loves my father alot if she know I dunno she can tk it or not. I'll stop here.. I very sad now, I cannot accept the fact that my father had leave us.. I'll nv accept..

***3 Nov 2007

Today I wake up quite late, I went to visit my Grandma @ TTSH.. Wen I reach thr, I saw my Grandma feeling beta I was very happy & relieved, tt time I still tinking of those nagative things.. now I onli wan to earn more money for my family,

Thank god for not tking my Grandma away, my Grandma is a great Grandma.. After the 2nd world war she has lost her husband & she got to support alot of kids. She used to wash plates... to support the family in those Kampong life till now I hv grow to b matured. Although my Grandma is 80 someting years old, but she is not old, her heart is young. I rather let her nag den no one nag mi, my parents already dun nag mi since I 10 years old onli my grandma nag mi, so pls god, let us look after her on behalf of u. I know ppl will die, but just let mi b greedy 1 time let her live as long as she can. . Even my mum I nv tt care of her, maybe she nv look after mi, from the day my nanny did not look after mi le, is my Grandma look after mi, both Grandma look after mi. So God, pls grant my wish.