Devil & Angel

14 Dec 2010

2010-12-13T17:24:00.000-08:00

Since long time nv updated. Suddenly feel like no one really I can talk to, so thinking tt I still had my blog. These 2 years been happily with my bf and supposed to be future husband we plan everything is only waiting for time. The day together is 3 of Oct 2008, I still rem when he took 4 months to woo mi, but I keep ignoring him, but he nv give up. At first was really honeymoon, it is. Tt time he hadn't got a job, no motor, no car. After tt he got a job, we was like everyday mit till stay together. His family member all I had met, so times goes is been 1 year le. Stilll rem his sister married, family & friends been asking us when is our turn. We just answer not so fast, till his mum asking when r we going to plan to marry. We just quiet. Everything was fine at first till he betray mi. I wun be writing what happen but those who known mi well will know what happen.

We broke once but finally patch, so now our offically broke off date should be 30 Nov ba. I can say I was very hurt, my heart was pain, everything was planned nicely but suddenly everything gone. I been trying to make myself busy by working. Onli working can make mi forget him, but actually in the fact I cant. I cant forget him att all, cosI really love him alot. Can say no one can replace him in my heart. As I said unless God arrange another guy for mi, tt really love mi & my son. As I have a son with mi, my son was matured he know I'm sad so he quiet, he didnt say anything.

Last few weeks been with my Kor Kor & Da Sao, they bring mi go V4, den have lots of fun. Den also met new friends through my ex colleague, we go Power House.

Unlucky Day

2009-09-02T23:15:00.000-07:00

On Last Mon, 31/08/2009 I was being sacked, den bf break with mi. Can you expect in one day I lose everything. I dunno wat happen oso. I tel myself not to be gd, always help ppl. Once u help ppl den they gt the things or my mission has completed they wil throw u aside liao. LOL... Wats wrong with mi, I stepped something tt I shouldnt step. Last nite I veri sad, den wanted to mit my Sis but she was with her bf, I has no money so have to depend on her bf, but wen call my sis she sound like very sian, abit loud, am I too senstive, so I decided not to mit them. I oso no money liao, den oso pai sei so I tel them I not gg out. After tt her bf call mi said ask mi go dwn, den said if I nv go dwn wait he wil kana scold by her. So I listen liao more sad. I know very troublesome in mi..I just wan my sis to be happi and Xin Fu, I dun wan her to be sad. As long as he treat her well I'm ok de, I can just leave them alone, dun wan to be their bulb. Haiz. I knew it, this year very suai... I wil leave them alone, I feel like killing myself jumping down, or eat medicine til die..

13-08-2009

2009-08-14T00:13:00.000-07:00

Today wrk at 6 pm, but I was late. Den I wrk with Eileen my colleague, I can see her face very tired lo. There is alot of patient, even until 10 liao stil gt patient lo. Haiz nw i know wat is 2359. Shit lo... Den ****cum and fetch mi hm, as is his birthday and I brought his presnt from Body Shop. A men perfume, hope he like it. After that we go TPY garden tt chinese 24 hours Restaurant to eat with his mum too. Hmm, the food thr is nice though is expensive. After tt we send his mum hm, den we go bk hm. Wen we reach hm, I have change to my usual sleeping clothes, suddenly he said boring as is his birthday, and the god(Ah Bei) ask him nt to celebrate on his actual birthday so he didnt ask his frds to join instead onli 2 of us. So I suggest Changi Airport, wow is so big Terminal 3., shit lo, forget to took photo cos we walk here walk thr dunno whr is the viewing mall, wen we reach the Viewing mall, thr nothing to see, since mani years we nv go to Changi airport except send frds off. Den we start to get tired and keep yawning, so we go hm. We reach hm ard 3 something le, start to get tired....(Slp)ZZZZZZZZZz....

11-08-2009

2009-08-11T11:33:00.000-07:00

Today start wrk at 5 pm, kaoz, went to wrk place everything was like a mess. I haven wera my gown yet, den boss keep dind dong , nobody wanna go in, IU have to go iin, luckily my boss know tt I just reach so nv scold mi for not wearing the mask and gown,. I wrk til ten den mit Winnie and her bf. Den w go amk west garden Mac, wow... My ph is quiet no one called mi ask mi whether tml gg out. Hmmm, I said le ma, I no money le, no one wil ask mi to go out de... We wait and see.. LOL.. Beta oso la, save my saliva to tel them I no money le. So bored at hm now den bathe finish, sian gt to wait til my hair dry le den can slp else I wil get headache esaily... Tml wrk 5pm to 10 again. Beat den Mon and Fri, wrk 2 shift, but oso gd la, can earn more money. Wen I can hv lots of money without any worried, hopefully Bro faster find a job so tt I no nid to paid so much and faster I can return money to my frds. Owe Citibank 500, Mdm Yeo 150 and Mary 150. total 800. Wow gg to mad soon.. Lucily not 1K bu talmost le. SIANZZZZZ.. Idiot this few days Faceboo have been lagged cant even comment to ppl, shit.... now gt to find games and play first.

10-08-2009

2009-08-10T08:40:00.000-07:00

Finally have time to updated my blog. This whole week was slacking at hm, 1st no money 2nd sick...Of cos no money la, have to paid this paid tt, return whoever I owe lo, SISTER planning to jio u out wan, but is onli ask nia. Hmmm..... I maybe too sensitive but til today I realised, today called one sis she was slping cos last nite they went out I cant go as I hv to wrk morning shift and nite shift. Den she said she wil called m bk but nv, I tink now they r gg out again. LOL... This is called sis, gt problem called no problem throw mi aside, I told myself not to care or bother so much bout them anymore. Wen I'm bery jia lat, onli some wil help nia, the rest haha..
Wen I gt money i iwil paid lo, but wen no money they oso said no money but stil can buy LV la, Gucci la.. LOL...... Reali can laugh sia.. So disappointing... Tink my birthday I have to fork out myself not sis lo, last year is mi open myself, den the rest is my ex colleague, my clubbing frds open lo, not SISTER.... Thanks to them I finally wake up..... Great I can concentrate on my wrk liao... If clubbing tink go with Eileen or Irene liao... hahahaha...

My depression is reali back.

2009-07-28T09:59:00.001-07:00

Last nite dunno y I get crazy.. I can actually jealous over a gal of my god sis.. WTF.., After I break up my own family, I have been on having lots of stress.. Lots of nagative thinking. I just wanna hv a happy family, and now I broke it, like a lovely glasses den I purposely go throw it on the floor to break.

Dunno y like tt leh, I been cutting myself. I cant slp at night, keep thinking tinking ... WTH I doing I dunno oso..
My Jie Jie had gv birth this morning, I'm so happy for her.

27-7-2009

2009-07-27T05:20:00.000-07:00

Today is monday, I'm wrking in the morning shift. So tired sia, luckily todae nothing happen in wrk onli at times Boss get angry and scolded all of us. he say that why r we regeistering the patients so slow, some parents are waiting very long. There is a patient, I rem she called just to wan us to pull out her son card den she said that she reach at 11 am, but there mani ppl in front of her, she reach at 11.10 like tt and purposely stand in front of my boss room, den my boss tot she stand very long alrtdy cos she was carrying her son. Den my colleague kana scold, Y the patient like tt wan, today I nv do counter I was behind preparing the medicine onli. There is a younger gal, 11 years old onli her foot was injured den my boss ask mi to tk out a blue sheet den that gal sit on it, using her foot to lay on the blue sheet, den my boss use a needle to poke her legs, yucks her blood all cum out, eeek, I dun even dare to look at her foot, I oso tel tt patient dun look at the food look at mi, den we keep looking at each other lo, so cute leh she. We nearly laughed out, but she very damn pain, of cos la, a needle leh, of cos pain la. eeeks...I nearly faint lo, so eeeks... The blood, every month I oso cum but dunno y I stil quite afraid maybe is see the needle poke in, cant imagine if it was mi, tink I wil cry like hell, or might be kicking the doc. But of cos wun happen la, cos I was grabbing the gal leg to prevent she kicked, lol.. So if for mi confirm gt ppl wil grab my leg. Just received a call from Cindy Jie, saying tonite gg out with her & Sandy. Niw stil waiting for her call leh. Dunno real or not, I alrdy tel her very obvious liao, I damn broke. So hope they wil understand... Hopefully they wil. But had a feel they wun ask mi out cos I very broke liao, no money liao how will they ask mi out... We will wait and see lo...
Time to play game, haha...
Updated again...

Back to a new life.

2009-07-23T10:06:00.000-07:00

Hmm long time nv updated le. Having lots of problem. Thanks to those who reali concern but mi, and not Kapoh onli. Have been under depression.. Dun worry I be fine, now is kinda of late got to slp le, tml gt to wrk..

The most unhappy day

2009-06-15T10:58:00.001-07:00

Today I went to wrk in the morning, den there is alot of patients. I was so busy that like no one was helping mi at all, one was busy calling Locum to relieve my boss as my boss Sun no wrking, another one dunno busy wat, I was busy gg to Doc room calling patient then do medicine den register patient. So busy like hell man. Everyone in the clinic was like picking on mi leh, they like to talk bad bout each other but in front like very gd to them. I onli click with Layhoon, Haling, Sali & Alice but she not wrking anymore. I was like in a time bomb cage like that. Today kana scold by my boss, he scold mi idiot lo & birdie brain, but ppl always said he is like that one. Few days later he will be ok le. I dun tink so lo, scold till so fierce like wanna chase mi away. I so sad that I cry out lo, they know I'm crying den wat to do. Being scold until like that, I have learn to control my temper le, I nearly said out I dun wrk anymore le. If not for my family I will resign instead of being insulted like that. Now I keep tinking of it leh, dunno wat to do now. Resign or not resign????

2009-06-15T10:57:00.000-07:00

9 June 2009

2009-06-08T21:36:00.000-07:00

Ytd was the fun being with my boy, I bring him go Arcade @ AMk. He was having alot of fun but for mi was not fun cos I spent money shit lo, is my hard earned money. Den Mary cum look for us playing with us oso. Wow, looks like we r having fun in thr like gg back to our childhood time. Hee. Den we go amk hub to look for disc to buy for my boy, we went to AMk hub "Poh Kim" thr. I brought 2 DVD cartoon for him for collection Poepye & Doraemon. As long as he love it, I oso happi, cos I nv see him been so happy for long alrdy. Today I work nite shift 5pm tp 10 pm, wow ok for mi too, as long as I get enuff slp, just chat with my Aunitie Yeo, a nice Auntie but dun like ppl to called her Auntie. Hee just love to teased her as she is cute.. Hahaha. Suddenly feel stomach not vei well shit, dun tell mi, cramp again, EEKS I hate it.

Well, gg to find games & play liao.

4 of June 2009

2009-06-04T08:37:00.000-07:00

I just bathe out so while waiting for my hair to dry I blogging, today wrk with Linda is fun, though she very talkative but she is gd wil able to help mi, sometimes I scared she onli care to tok instead of helping mi. Hee, luckily.... She told mi she was quarreling with her husband last few days but her husband still will come fetch her hm, so nice I wan oso dun have.. I have told her liao being 20 years plus couple whr gt always quarrel 1, even quarrel her hubby still cum & fetch her rite, Diao...Anyway today oso a peaceful days, & finally a peaceful nite too. My friend just called mi ask mi whether wan to go Thailand on the 15 this month, so rush how to go. Sianz. I was planning to go on Aug but is still planning. If gg, i muz get leave from the clinic somemore gt work gt paid, no work no paid. Sianz.. I miss my Mummy Irene, dunno whr the hell she gone. I'm waiting to reconnected my line back so that my sis & friends can able to contact mi. Argh.. waiting for my paid day, had lots of shit to clear sia. Got to slp soon tml wrk 2 shifts, morning & nite. Den Sat morning den Sun OFF, yeah so happi...

Tired Day

2009-06-02T21:42:00.001-07:00

Argh... Today so so angry nt enuff slp somemore.. Receiving a call from colleague ask mi cum early as tt AUNTIE had a knock on her head, is true cos I saw that too. Haiz, now she keep saying that she headache la, dizzy la, funni rite. I was like shoooooo..... So F***ing tiring, if anyone could gv mi lift to wrk I would be very grateful... No la, just kidding. I feel like throwing temper now cos too tired le, if I know will like that happen, I should slp early but I slp so late is hardly things one, anyway tml I will be wrking morning, den Fri 8am-1pm den night 6pm to 10pm, like that I'm reali a supa woman alrdy... Diao.. Now blogging 1st den go bathe, just now alrdy nearly quarrel with my bro over cigarettes, Mummy brought us cigarettes, each person one, yet he said now he sick nv go wrk no money how can I take his cigarette, hello is mine lo, he took mine yet said I took his. Wat a unreasonable guy!!!!! My msn cannot log in, more worst, shit la everything not shun shun (in hokkien) Tink tonight wun be blogging as I knock off alrdy very tired. Somemore by the time I reach hm alrdy gg to 11, plus bathe waiting for my hair to dry is oso gg to be 1am, argh, like that whr gt energy.. Haiz, arghhhhhhhh....

Wat a bad day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wat a day

2009-06-02T09:35:00.000-07:00

Today I wrk in the night shift, as Sun & Mon I was on monrning shift so nv updated my blog. Too tired alrdy, slp oso no time liao. Onli suft for game nia.. Wondering how's my 3 Fu Lu Shou, are they being guai or not, tt night tok to Sandy on the phone den MSN until 6 moning, kao, we 2 reali can tahan.. haha.. Is been long time nv tok to her oso liao. Can see she change alot, studying oso, dunno wats my Vonn doing, she carrying a baby now muz be tough for her, as ask TingTing to look after her dunno she gt look after or not. Hmm, all of us was so busy like Sandy oso said: everyone was so busy till no time for her, LOL.. Sandy ar, be gd gal... Miss u mucks.. Oso miss the says we go clubbing, but we go till very sianz liao...LOL... Oso true la.. No club is fun liao, like for mi I much prefer St James of cos. Hee cos my sister & friends all thr... Tml I wrk in the night shift too, so now just bathe out waiting for my hair to get dry den go slp ba. My dear at Bishan muz be with his best friend lo, no one else. He said will call mi later c I have slp alrdy or not. Since wrk this job like no time to mit him like that.

The Day we went to Fly

I'm so stress

2009-05-29T11:17:00.000-07:00

Finally have the time to update my blog, I was busy at the clinic & of cos nid to earn money... I nid money now, diao everyone nid money wat am I talking about.. LOL... I was having so much stress, as my working place have lots of politics, actually alot of places have politics is onli how we prevent it. But no matter how u prevent it, there maybe things u cant. I have the experiences so I remain quiet, the more u tok the more trouble u gt.. Haiz long stories... Is late now, tml stil got to work in the morning, surpposed to be my off day but suddenly 2 of my colleagues sick den mi & the other colleagues have to cum back. Diao.......Hmm, tink of gg work muz tie up so sian lo, I just rebonding onli now muz tie up, SOb Sob.... Wanna cry liao la..

First day of work. 11/5/09

2009-05-11T02:38:00.000-07:00

Hmm, today 1st day of work at 11.30 am. It was raining very heavily, wen I reach the clinic, there is alot of patient. So I start my training, is pressure but so far I can manage abit the onli problem is muz wear the gown & mask.. EEEK as the H1N1 flu, everyone is scared. So mani things to learn, I'm scared of the medicines onli as I have no experience at all. The colleaues thr are fun & helpful,. they do have patience to teach them, thanks to them too. The doc thr is gd too, but I tink he want mi to learn more things within one week if I'm not wrong. I work till 3.30pm but I stay till 4.30, anyway can learn more & earn more the most important. Reach home le, now blogging, eating my 1st meal which is Maggi Mee. Got to stop waiting for my Ghost Whisperer to load finish den I'm gg to enjoy my show & slp awhile later.

8 of May 09

2009-05-08T01:26:00.000-07:00

Fianlly got a job as a Clinic Assistant at Serangoon garden. Is a part time, though the time is abit strange but is onli 4 hours so think is ok for mi but the onli thing is some muz start wrk at 8am in the morning wondering can I wake up. I will be start work on Monday. Very funny is when I reach the clinic where I nid to interview, once I go in & see the doc, the doc talk very fast & just said to mi all my time slots wothout asking mi any question, lastly den ask mi : "am I ok with it?" I was stunned awhile den said no problem without hesitated. I was oso blur tt why I nv go and consider, though I may not like this job, but at least gt a part time job instead of full time job. Time past very fast, is been nearly 3 months den got a part time job.
I miss Nini, she still haven book out meh, tink tonight she will book out. Miss her blur blur, short hair, as she muz cut & cut very long, when I see her, mi was so shocked lo... She will finish her training for a month, wondering she can tahan or not, hopefully can and she muz tahan lo. Poor gal.
Mi now at home slagging, playing game... Listening to Jay Chou songs very relax...
Updated again....

Selling LV Bag

2009-05-05T04:39:00.001-07:00

Hi everyone,

I'm selling a LV bag behalf of my sis, selling at a gd price.. Interested pls send me a email jenniferseah@hotmail.com , is brandly new (is real nt imitation)...

29-April-2009

2009-04-29T01:17:00.000-07:00

Today the weather is F***ing bad, mi having a flu.. Mi now still jobless, shit... Haiz now is job chose us not we chose job... I miss my younger days time, no worried of this & that but now grow up alrdy muz worried this worried that. My brain now is gg to broke down liao, cannot think of anything, onli think of money. Today Wed, I got buy 4d hopefully tonight let mi strike 1st prize enuff alrdy, 3rd or 2nd oso can at least gt money to take... Dunno wats my SAndy doing, she called mi said she went for Private Spa Courses, gd for her & I'm vey happy for her that knewing she & Jasper are getting along very gd. So I no nid worried for her, aiya actually no nid to worried for my Fu Lu Shou, sometimes I tink they are mature den mi.. Vonn gg to be mother soon, but a blur mother, she always forget to eat the tonic medicine. Hope she will reali know how to tk care of herself, I myself no use cant tk care of her cos I dun even know how to take care of myself. Mi having alot of stress but no one know lo, Mum keep nagging to mi, dun understand mi at all. When my brother was jobless for 5 years she nv even complain bout him but mi leh, i onli jobless for 2 months she can keep nagging at mi, this is unfair to mi. If my Dad still alive he will side mi as he more understand mi. I always tok to my problem to MAry or Nini but now Nini went to Cisco for training liao, den Mary wrking after wrk she have to go hm, as her husband is ard. So nobody listen to my problem & gt to put everthing in my heart. Last time if our sisters still together, maybe till now we will conference on the phone & talk liao.. Haiz all is in the past.

Got to stop liao, cos now I go find game & play..

Another Boring day...

Sister's Bond

2009-03-03T00:02:00.000-08:00

I just watch the drama Huan Huan Ai, watching halfway I see one part was like mi & Mary..
Whenever I'm sad or she sad, or shoulders is for us to lean on. She will understand wat I want or what I'm thinking of, she wun ask and just support mi quietly.. I will think if her whenever I was sad, she wil always tink of mi. When she had problem, she will keep to herself, but I know what happen, MONEY... Everything is bout money, of cos in society money is important. Mi & her dun bother MONEY, cos both of us no money we will still stay happy. It wun cause our sister bond to be bad. Now she wrking le, I was so happy for her at least she has income.
Actually I was stress cos no job, no money.. I'm tired of living sometimes, but I tink of my family, Mary, I endure it. Miss the days we are young, why is it time past so fast that make us getting old fast.

I'm getting old le, 30 soon.. I'm so scared...

22-Feb-2009

2009-02-22T23:15:00.000-08:00

Is raining heavily today, den went to Shop & Save to buy vegetable.. Reaching hm, slag awhile den go cook dinner.. Now muz save money, not like last time liao got wrk no nid scared, now no wrk, muz worried.... Watching 7pm show til 9 pm den slag... Slp at 2 to 3 something.. Cant slp at all.

21-Feb-2009

2009-02-20T22:57:00.000-08:00

Wet to Market & buy vegetables again, gaonna cook again, this time I cook Cabbage, den Fish enuff le,, trying to cook soup, I put Cabbage & Eggs, dunno will nice or not, hopefully is gd, so that next time I can cook mani. Now surfing net again, doing nothing, so boring.. I go play game bnow or maybe find show to watch.

20-Feb-2009

2009-02-20T22:46:00.000-08:00

Today wake early in the morning preparing to go TPY CDC. I mit Pauline at her blk downstairs , de Sandy already reaching TPY le, we have appointment at 11.15. So we walk to Yio Chu Kang MRT to take train. When we reach TPY, we already late, the the receptionist said we cant see the officer as we r too late, so arrange another time for us which is 25 of Feb 2009, 4.45 pm, haha gd gd, wun late liao.. Vonn more worst cant wake up, I'm so angry... Den mi, Sandy & Pauline go to Snooker Zone to play pool, actually the table thr is nice to play. Later on Sandy said she got to go nbk her mum saloon to help out, later cum & mit up wif us. Left mi, Pauline, Vonn & Sebas. Sebas tk 851 bus, he blur that he tk to Bukit Merah, think he fall aslp inside the bus. We walk around TPY, but I think we walk the whole TPY, as we nothing to do. Den later on we go bk to AMK central by Bus no 88, havin fun inside the bus. When we reach amk, we go to NTUC to buy Sushi & eat at blk 700 downstair, wow the wind is so big, that our hair is so messy, den Vonn & Sebas was fooling around making so much fun.. Haha, they so funny, sometimes can play until Quarrel, but of cos hope they wun quarrel. After that we wait for Sandy to cum backi AMK from TPY, she tk bus 88, when she reach she & Pauline went to K Pool, den mi, Vonn & Sebas walk home together, as wasting time lo.. The weather is gd so we can wlk hm, else we confirm will tk bus. When I reach hm, I tk a short nap, as I'm reali very sleepy liao. Waiting for another day to pass, so boring still cant find a job, I'm gonna bored till crazy liao.

When can I get mani mani mani money?????

18-Feb-2009

2009-02-18T21:03:00.000-08:00

Staying at home for the whole day, morning went to market to buy vegetables, I have brought Chye Sim, Luncheon Meat and Fish(Shop & Save), den walk hm as usual. When I reach hm, prepared the food that I brought, den go play game awhile. Around 5.30pm den I start to cook. Pauline went to my hse, cos she bored at hm.. I cook the Prawn 1st that Winnie catch, den the Fish, after that the Chye Sim, lastly the Luncheon Meat as the Luncheon Meat, I prefer hot to eat. When finish, I took a rest so I ask my brother & Sister in Law to eat 1st, den Mi & Pauline.. Pauline said I cook very nice, ask mi did I learn from young but I said NO, I learned by anyhow cook, I still rem last time I cooked very badly 1, no taste at all. Now improve le, sometimes my Darling Mary got guide mi, tts y can improve very fast.. Whenever I cook, I see ppl eat finish my food I very happy, ppl happy I'll happy.
After eating, I went to the livin g room to warch TV with Pauline, den Yvonne called Pauline asked us wanna go Blk 631 to acc her eat, but dunno y I feel very tired so ask Pauline go mit her 1st, anyway they lived nearby onli, can walk together, for mi can't, cos I got to walk very long. Lazy too. Thinking of tml again, dunno wat to do, no money & 4D nv kana strike more sianz. Wen is the God of Fortune come to mi, heard that is a temple at Sengbawang gt God of Fortune, muz find one day to go. No work sian, Winnie & her bf go Vinetam le, I more boring.

Hope they faster come bk, next week Monday I'll be miting her, yeah... Come back safe..

17 Feb 2009

2009-02-17T20:58:00.000-08:00

Wake up in the early morning den went to TPY CDC, needed them to help mi find a job & I oso wan my 3 Fu Lu Shou to find job too, Maybe can let them go for courses, I want them to wrk in the office too, if I see they can wrk in the office I will be the first to be happy for them. We gals cant ppl look down on us, we muz be strong, as no such things as free lunch in the world. . I mit up Pauline, Vonn & Sandy, these 3 r my fu lu shou.. Love them.. We having fun at TPY, talk nonsense la, joking ard... Den after we finish booking the appoiment we went to eat our lunch..After eating, Sandy left for interview at Farrar park. Den mi, Pauline & Vonn went to play pool. I play billiard wan, but they always wan to play Pool. The counter uncle very funni, he told us that if we play near Pang Ling Ling will hv to charge $1 more, so I ans bk the uncle said, Palg Ling Ling play pool is none of our business, den I walked over I stil grumbling den I realise Pang Ling Ling at thr oso & still beside us onli. So Pai she lo. Saw gt one guy teaching her playing, think she gt a drama nid to play pool. Wow, she cut her hair, I miss her long hair cos she long hair more pretty, anyway she pretty enuff le. Is oso ok la, my pool can improve so that next time I went to Pub, can play oso...
Afetr TPY we went to Novena look for My Darling, MARY, cos she wrking thr ma, so go & look for her. Her friend Joanna treat mi eat Laksa, hmm so pai seh lo, den Mary keep running her running thr notime for mi lo, so sad. After that we went bk to AMK central walk walk, we go K Pool play again haiz whole day playing pool no wonder my hand cramp. Later on, Sandy went hm early cos JAsper is gg to knock off & wil reach hm anytime. I like her life to be like that, cos I think Jasper is gd, though sometimes is not that gd, is oso can understand cos he love Sandy alot, if not Y so angry whenever Sandy nv come hm, or not beside him. I envy Sandy.. After that around 9.30pm, mi went hm with Pauline & Vonn, but Vonn go find Sebas at AMK Mrt station, den left mi & Pauline. Haiyo, the taxi uncle very nagging, keep talking talking.. I very scared Taxi Uncle very nagging 1, sometimes we tk cab just want to relax, be quiet na, but met this kind of Driver, mind cannot relax.
After that reach hm, watch TV, den Suft net, play Viwawa. damn sian liao no game to play liao. we took pic, so now I uploading, but dunno Y the video no sound.

16 Feb 2009 (Jobless Day 1st Day)

2009-02-15T21:59:00.000-08:00

Haiz now at homne doing nothing, very boring. Miss the day waking up early in the morning den go wrk, den breakfast with Buddy Winnie. Den fooling around, having fun in the office. So Fun, now leh, at home surfing aorund the PC like Ah Siao like that. Hmm tofday gg to fried Nian Gao, nothing to do, so play ard inside te kitchen. Later miting my buddy Winnie & Pauline. Pauline called said come my house cos she nv go do Vounlteer work today as her ears is still pain. Wondering how is my Nian gao like later, hopfully is gd, now playing facebook 1st, listening music opening loud, very shiok.. LOL.. I listening to Imeem.

I wanna find a job ASAP, esle I will be crazy at all, my mind i MONEY... NO MONEY NO TALK..Just no oso talking to my Boss, oops shld be EX BOSS in MSN. He oso said no job no happy. Everyone is talking to this topics regarding Retrenched, I oso dun understand how cum I oso kana retrenched.. I work in this Company so long le, now
like tt, so sad lo. On the last day, I try to control my tears so do Winnie lo. I can see she more sd den mi, cos she wrk nearly 4 years le & Mi 2 years.. Shit lo, whr gt this kind of thing 1, kana retrenched. I & Winnie so close oso bcos of this job. Tml gg to CDC dunno gt time to updated my blog or not, cos I told myself if kana retrenched le, must updated everyday dun think can ba. Now my life is, wake up play game, den if got mit Sister go mit them lo, nv thinking of gg back to Clubbing no money la. Transport oso nid money, unless got a new job liao den I confirm will go eat first.

I wanna thanks to those Sister when I'm very broke liao, they still stand by my side, not like those sis, look down on mi 1.. & is always look down on mi. This is called Ren Xin Nan Che..

Tts all la, I wan go play game liao den go to my kitchen le...

13 Jan -2009

2009-01-13T22:10:00.000-08:00

Went to AMK buy something, Saw Mary sis at thr too, cos she wrking in Couple Lab.. Tml Valentine's Day le, sian dunno wat having plan.. Got Money is the best liao no nid tink too much....

2 Jan 2009

2009-01-01T20:00:00.000-08:00

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A new year coming, 2009. Where did I count down? At friend's place, just nice their house having Housewarming Party. Many ppl was there, quite fun for mi cos I was gambling (BY LUCK). Wow, at first win but suddenly lose, sian... Mi & Dear was there, he was gambling outside & Mi inside cos Gals inside the house Guys outside the house, luckily no ppl report police. Is New Year EVE ma, everyone was having fun. Wow, I hope this NEW YEAR is a very best year for mi, good luck keep knocking on my door. Ytd was busy buying Darius School books, as he start school todae, after buying books, buy his school shoes as well, den after tt go Seng Siong buy gorceries wow spend mi $86.15, tts expensive but those is needed for my family. No money soon, tml is Sat. I want buy 4D....

We must therefore prepare for a difficult year ahead, and especially the first half of 2009. -PM LEE

2009, Singaporean need to face more difficult situation... I'm scared too, cos I need to support family..

Sometimes my mind is blank & do not what to do..

30-dec-2008

2008-12-29T21:43:00.000-08:00

Today so tired until I wrk halfway want to slp. Ytd mit Mary @ AMK central, so tk transport bus from my office. When I reach AMK, I walked from the other way as to waste time so that by the time I reach MAC Mary have already reach. Suddenly when I'm gg to reach MAC, I have a very bad feeling that my heartbeats goes very fast. So I hide at Patrick HP shop, den I call Raymond to aak anything happen, den he told mi that got Customs police catch ppl smoking NO TAX FREE Cigarettes. I was smoking no tax free cigarettes too, it was very lucky man, else I dunno how to pay the $1K fine. I was gladful I wear Thailand Amluet..Den we go 721 coffeeshop look for Mary Father, again BEER, OMG... den Sandy & Pauline look for mi for Dinner den when they eat finish they go K-Pool to play pool. Mi & Mary still stay @ 721 until Mary father suddenly said he was hungry wanna go 727 eat, so we walked over thr. When we reach thr her father again order BEER, & some food. Later on received a msg from Winnie to jio for Mahjong, so I said ok. Wow, lose money, shit, no money to pay. Lose 27 dollars to Winnie boyfriend.. Dear Dear msg mi to call him, when I call him he was drunk le, hmm always drunk when he go LV or Hollywood. So I quickly go home & bathe den wait for Dear Dear to fetch mi by cab. Reach his house @ 2 plus gg to 3. Yawn... slp @ 4 plus AM.

29-Dec-2008

2008-12-28T19:08:00.000-08:00

Today reach office at 9.25am, deb went breakfast with Winnie at Canteen. We brought same breakfast our usual(Egg & Sausages). Found a seat so we sat down, den saw a person very familiar, Oh No our Manager, oh shit, we eat very fast but too late saw him walking towards us, but lucky there is a group walking beside him so they have block him from seeing us. Wow, so lucky man.
Haiz talking bout my Christmas, staying at home including Christmas Day watching TV, surfing net. Gosh.. Find Horror Movie to watch sian, nothing to watch. At night mit Dear, same life. Ever since I stop clubbing, I feel lost of something but gain more things. If I continue Clubbing, dunno whats my life will be. Miss my Irene Mummy, Rain Jie, & Cindy Jie, all my clubbers, Sisters & Brother. Thinking how r they now, last week tok to my buddy in MSN, ask mi when am I gg back to Club, they miss mi, I oso miss them. It seems like I reali nv club for nearly a month liao. But Dear Dear dun like mi to club leh, sian...
San Birthday on 24 Dec, wun forget that day cos is easy to rem, saw her pic in Facebook know they went to St James, lucky I nv go, esle dunno what they will said bout mi again. Being poke once, scared liao... dun create more problems, or any topic to them. Anyway wish her Happy Birthday plus Merry Christmas. Find one day will look for her, maybe dinner ba. Just HER onli, no one else....
Now in the office dunno do what, just download a game.. think is done. I beta go play le, tml or other day den Blog again...
After work miting Mary, den go walk walk.

23 Dec 2008

2008-12-22T18:27:00.000-08:00

Today the same went office from Dear house, is was like moving to his house liao. Ytd mit up Mary & supposed to mit Pauline but she went to play Pool with Lilian. But before mit them I went to Dear house to fetch Yang Yang bk to my house cos he stay over at Dear house den eat dinner at his place. After go AMK central find Mary, we go Big S11 to look for Mary father. MAry father always drink over thr, think he is addicted to Beer liao. We sit at S11 quite long den Vonn & Sebas come & mit us & oso followed by Raymond, Ah Kiong. Mi & Mary took pic again, trying different poses. Mi & Vonn oso took pic, but one nia cos she said her hair is messy but actually not she already very pretty enuff. No gals is ugly but lazy, nv said gals is ugly or fat, KARMA, KARMA.. Scared scared..Den mi & Mary walk bk hm, she acc her father to walk back hm cos her father seems drunk, mi stil ok, den wen I reach hm saw my brother watching in Crunchyroll. Den he said my hair too long muz cut cos too scary. It was just a movie.. My hair so long, I reali cant bear to cut lo. I'm very protective of my hair. Do treatment myself once a week or sometimes twice a week. Tts y ppl see my hair think it was healthy, hmm no la is because of treatment & muz protect. Heee...Around 12 something I go bathe den get ready to Dear house. Dunno y I keep anyhow think, think of no money foe celebrations. Sianzzzzzzzz. When reach Dear house suddenly hungry, hint Dear to cook noodles but he seems wil nagging so I said is ok forget it. If a bf got the heart he will cook for u even if u said no need. I'm quite disappointed, haiz.. Just slp wif empty stomach, confirm the next day will gastric pain.
Wow tml Christmas Eve le, no money cant go anywhere. Sianzzzz. If Dear want to go out wif his friends I ask him to go himself I dun wan to go, cos the next day got to look after Yang Yang.. Sianzzzz.. I was like no freedom like tt... I'm not happy this whole year, wish 2009 will be a better year to mi.

22-dec-2008 Fresh Day

2008-12-21T18:37:00.000-08:00

Today cum office from Dear house, Yang Yang @ his house dunno wake up le ma. Hopefully not Yang very playful 1, he wun let ppl slp will wake the person up. Ytd stay at hm the whole day cooking dinner, I cook Spinach, Fish (Bantang), Pork (Can) & Soup(Potato, Carrot, Mushrooms & Chicken Wing), not bad la though is not perfect but at least my family like it can liao. Den I watch movie from internet, found a movie very nice, Japan Horror Movie, damn nice. Gals who did Hair Extensions should watch it. I see till my eyes big big, cos I cant imagine Hair can grow through Tongue, & Body.. EEEKS.. Now think of the show my hair oso feel like standing.
Haiz, today my boss is MC, he is sick from last week till now, hope he recover soon, sometimes wif him around I feel he irrating, but he noty around I oso not used to it. Winnie leh my Buddy, she msg mi said she overslept so tk halfday. Haiz left mi & ALice nia, is ok la.. can spend my time writing my blog. Just feel that if I gt problem & dun feel like find ppl to tok, I can write in my blog so tt if whoever see this blog will know wat I'm thinking.
Had a dream on Fri or Sat, I dream of my last time gruops of Sis. Dream of wen we was young, Mi, San San, Big Winnie always hang @ AMK West Garden eating Maggi Mee, den Small Winnie & Jane pop out, den we became very click & join together, and mani mnai things happen, like playing Arcade games, Fighting la, & ......... or we will pongtang (skip School) go anywhere. No money will share, got money oso wil share. Still rem wen I run away from stay @ Yishun, den all of us stay togther. Den our Super Jane will cook nice Dinner for us, miss her Dry marconi. Den one day we had a riot bcos of one gal, haiz long story, den Big Winni ekana head, den wen police cum, so given our statement to the police, to our surprise is our statement is given the same, I swear we nv discuss bout our statement, maybe this is call chemistry. Den till I married, all came which make mi touched, & till I divorce oso some acc mi, I still rem, San San, Yiling, Jane, & Big Winnie. So mani things happening. Dunno y will dream of this. Anyway tts the past, a new year coming. Every Year of Chinese we will gathering for Dinner but this year no more le. I wish them Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year. This is the List I wish.
Ah Gal- Wish she stay pretty forever & A good Mummy to Gilford & Ian.

San San - She alrdy very pretty. Wish she b a Xin Fu 4ever, & stay tt cheerful smile.

Big Winnie - Wish her stay pretty forever. Wish her have a happy family not to be bully by her hubby (I'm worried).

Jane - Wish her pretty forever. Wish her career can climb very high, & of cos her love life is gd. (Guys pls dun hurt her feeling.)

Candy - Wish her pretty Forever. WIsh her stay like tis like forever, can see she is very Xin Fu already. Her Baby very Cute.

Small Winnie - Wish her stay Pretty Forever. Wish she & her bf can last long & wish her earn more more money of cos muz stay happy forever.

Yiling - Wish her pretty forever. Wish her not to be blur blur anymore, cos she is Mummy of Trina(her daughter name) now.

Mary (My Darling) - Wish her pretty forever. She is strong but weak in her heart. Wish she can tk care well together with Siang Siang (my nedphew).

This is end of my wish list.
Of cos Wish myself have a good life, & My family too. I want lots of money....
A New Year is coming, means good luck is knocking on my door already...

Sad Day of 19-Dec-2008

2008-12-18T19:33:00.000-08:00

Today is a sad day, cos lats nite supposed to go Dear house but end up I fall aslp, bythe time I called him bk he have reach hm liao, & can hear he very angry cos he attiude with me den I half slp oso temper not gd, den I just hang up his call. Den keepp thinking that is he change or he is waiting for the chance to break with mi, I do not know. Hopfully not, now waiting for his msg, but think he wun call mi ba, cos he dun like ppl to hang up his call but last nite he reali very attiude lo. Till now I no mood. I have broke liao, no money with mi.. This is the first time I'm so Broke that no even a cents with mi. I dunno y become like that, I dun dare to borrow money, cos scared no money to return. My colleague has already lend mi, den I eat already can spend half of it. I'm so sad lo, my dear dun understand mi, maybe he understand but dun wan say scared I tk money from him. I nv tk money from him b4, onli ytd but in the end nv tk but end up quarrel..
My mind is blank now, & I cant concentrate in my work at all, tts y my boss KPKB mi, can understand la, keep doing wrong thing. Den cant throw my temper, still muz pretend very happy lo, the feeling is hurt.
Now waiting for my Dear MSG...

18-Dec-2008

2008-12-17T18:35:00.000-08:00

Reach office at 9.20am, hmm luckily boss nv nag but today boss face black. When I reach office I feel very fresh, cos tt fellow nv work anymore le. I so detest him.
Yesterday mit up Pauline at AMK central, den we went for dinner, order 1 plate of Nasi Lemak cost 2Bucks (Egg, Hotdog & Fish Fillet). Eating halfway, saw Mary, my darling, I tot she wnet bk to her In Laws house so nv msg her. She called mi she was with Siang Siang my nedphew, den Mary said she mit her Father @ AMK S11 for dinner, den mi, Pauline & Raymond acc her to mit her father. While on the way to S11, Mary went to buy Siang Siang school, as he starting Primary 1 soon ( Yio chu Kang Primary School) Wow time pass very fast. When we reach S11, we just sat down & order drink. Mary father drink beer as usual, he keep asking Mary to drink, den Mary push the drink to mi, haha, tts her style.. Known her so mani mani years liao, still dunno her pattern meh, den we took photo, haha.. Love to tk photo with her. Mary father decided to go Blk 727 to eat seafood, so we quickly drink liao den walk to 727. When we reach 727, look for table, den Mary, her father & Mi we went to order Crab, Chicken with delicious sauces & Prawn. Den we tok alot of things, back to our youngest times, haha, cant liao la, getting old soon, few more years gg to 30 soon. After eating we walk back home just like when we was young, mi & Mary always walk home, when she haven married she just stay opp my house, now far liao lo, she & Siang Siang walk to Yio Chu Kang, I know she purposly walk to Yio Chu Kang, cos she want to acc mi walk back, both of us want our memories bk. Pauline was enjoying walking wif us too, we dun want her to spend money on Taxi home so we dragged her to walk bk with us. HAHA, she need exercise else she always tired easily.
When I reach hm, received SMS from Dear ask wanna mit or not, of cos I want. So when I reach hm, rest awhile den chat with my bro den go bathe & get ready to Dear house.
Reach Dear house at 11 plus ba, hmm, mi & Dear chit chat, he said he whole day cleaning the house, including the toilet, den tk some weight as he is getting fat, haha. Den we tok about our future house, he & Mi has the same thinking but think of Money, haiz sian, pls MONEY MONEY, COME COME.. Den I'm too tired went to slp 1st, around 1am ba went to sweet dreams, ZZZZZZ.

16-Dec-2008

2008-12-16T18:48:00.000-08:00

Today I went work from Dear house, den tk 268 to office. Feel fresh gg to wrk, cos I was countdown the days whon I dun like the fellow had resign & tml is his last day. hahaha... I was very happy. When I reach my wrk place, mi & Winnie go canteen & had our breakfast as usual, egg & sausges...After work, I tk company transport bus to AMK central cos I mit Dear Dear over thr. Den we go AMK hub walk walk awhile den go back hm for Dinner as his father got cook, hmm miss his Dad cooking. den I stay @ his house to slp till next day go early morning go my own house bathe den go work. I oso wish to stay @ his house as I dun wan want my family to see my sad face cos I'm gg to broke le, no money to eat. I was very troubled regarding this matter. I wish Money will drop from the sky though I know it wun. I always think why our life muz be like tt.
12Noon, we went for lunch @ Techpoint, our boss tell us tt there is another Retrenchment again, scared our position cannot be cover liao. I was worried too, as I have too mani things & debts to settle, I can't get money from my dear wait confirm will quarrel, & ppl always tot I'm strong enuff that everything I can overcome it, but the truth is I can't liao, I'm lost now. Now I onli know everything leave it to fate. Tml is another fine day.

Dear Father,

Could you pls help mi? I reali dunno what to do now, no one is gg to help mi now. Could you pls give mi advise what should I do? Pls forgive mi if I do anything wrong.

Amen.....

Pa,

If you in the other world know that I'm suffering now, could you pls help mi... I'll always hope tt u will cum to my dream & tell mi what should I do. U may scold mi if u tink that I have do anything wrong.

9 Dec-2008 to 13-Dec-2008

2008-12-14T21:21:00.000-08:00

wow, Reach Golden Mall at 5 to mit up Dear mother & Sister. Waiting for the coach bus @ 6.30 den we set off to Hat Yai (Thai). 1st time to Thai is very excited, inside the bus was great, though is long journey but lucky can lie doen to slp. We took 13 hours to Thai, we will being lead to Coffeehouse halfway to eat, drink or Toilet, although inside the coach bus has toliet but I dun dare to tk. I took several Pic of Food inside the coffeehouse, haha.. I eat Ramy Burger share with Dear Dear, den eat some Cute Cute (Kaya) found in AMK Market wen I'm young now no more le. Den after eating continue our journey, again we reach another Coffeehouse after many many hours of bus journey again. I chose a breakfast very special, bread with Prata, 1 Hotdog & a beautiful Egg, I did took Pic of this oso. After eating, again our journey, this time no more stopping to Coffeehouse straight to Thailand. Dunno pass through how many Customs le, cant rem le, too tired. Den we went to a shopping place which is no Tax , I took Pic the too, sell all kinds of Liquor. WOW. Amazing that Vokka has all kind of Favour, we brought Vokka Mango.
We have reach THailand, wow nv been thr before feel very Mountain, haha... Den we tk bk the Coach Bus to HatYai. Wen we reach Hat Yai, we look for Hotel to settle down & put our things. We stay @ Oriental Hotel, not tt Grand but @ least there is a bathtub, shiok... Mi & Dear Dear one room, Dear mother, Sister & Sis Son in a room. Den we took a bath 1st den start our shopping, haha. They sell alot of things thr, so mani till I forget liao. now still recalling.. We walk walk den eat eat, so fun... Reali forget liao whr we go. I onli know after eating we go bk Hotel to rest as the next day got to wake up early cos we book a van to send us to 3 or 4 Temple i forget liao. Wen we reach hotel liao, mi & Dear drink the Vokka Mango, is very shiok. I was so drunk den fall aslp.
The next day we wait for the bus to arrive, den we wnet to temple to pray, wow so mani temple. Took pic again, hmmm.... nice scenary view..... The last day brought alot of things. Bags, Shoes, Clothes & those eat 1... I reali forget liao, cos today wen I step in office got things to do liao. Hmmm, still in holiday mood. I swear I want to go Thailand again.

5-Dec-2008

2008-12-04T23:07:00.000-08:00

Hmm, Mit my sister Sandy go AMK hub, she was late make mi wait for an hour le. den mit her Husband oso.. Sandy treat mi eat Sushi @ AMK hub (Ichiban), dunno y she got the money, maybe she wrking ...We took pic outside while queuing.

I like the Pic we took cos it was veri natural. After eating, we went to mit Pauline @ K Pool, cos Sandy & Pauline want to play pool, as for mi, no pool for mi, Billard... Yeah I love it.. after playing, mi & Pauline go hm together cos she stay near mi. Go hm liao, tk a rest, & suddenly fall aslp maybe I'm too tired...Tml muz go wrk early to have Breakfast. My favourite Coffee..

3 Dec 2008

2008-12-03T21:05:00.000-08:00

Today knock off went to AMK hub to do something alone, den I go NTUC walk walk oso alone. I buy Milk Powder, Potato Chips & Maggi Mee.. Den went to pay, sian 3 things oso nid $18 something no money liao. I called Dear & ask him where is he, he still @ Golden Mall with his Mum to pay the Tickets, cos next week we gg Thai (Ho Chi) le, wow so excited as I nv go b4. But will miss my family of cos. Especially the 2 rascals..

Den after buying things, I go hm & wait for my Dear cos I meeting him. He make mi wait till 2AM, hmm, den reach his hse @ 2 something... we took pic again den he cook Noodles for mi. Ard 3 plus we slp cos tml I've got to work.

2 Dec 2008

2008-12-02T21:12:00.000-08:00

Today go wrk as usual, after work miting Pauline @ TPY MRT station, she's late sian... DEn we go walk walk buy Bra, we spent almost half & hour inside the Bra Shop, I brought 2 bras 1 panties. Pauline brought 3 bra I think. Den I go buy Handphone Strap, I make spoilt one liao. If I nv buy the HP Straps, my phone dunno wanna lost how mani times. After buying everything, we go to the Food Court near the Library as my Dear Mum wrk thr, den Pauline & I order Fried Kway Tiao and Mee Goreng, FOC wan, haha..Den Pauline order Drink, I drink BAngdung, Pauline order Peanuts, not nice 1...
We wanted to pay but she insisted dun want us to pay. We joke ard with my Dear mum, can see she veri boring & I took pic with her, I tell her that wen we go Thailand I will bring my camera including Charger over thr. haha... She smiled.. After that we decided to go back AMK walk walk, den My dear called mi ask wanna mit, hmph, suddenly wan to mit, dunno wat happen , hmm, beta dun think too much wait we will quarrel again. Wen reach amk, we waited for Dear outside Mac. den we acc him go press money, while waiting for him, I ask Pauline to send mi photo of mi & her, cos save veri long liao, wait for her to upload in the Friendster veri long 1.... haha.. after 9.25 like tt, mi & Dear acc Pauline tk taxi. After sending her, Mi & Dear go NTUC to buy Air-Fresherner den go back hm liao. Reach hm already 10 Plus, luckily can see the Channel U Drama Show in time...
Den zzzzzzz sleeping time... Hahaha..

1-DEC-2008

2008-12-01T19:50:00.000-08:00

Hmm, after I knock off I went to AMK K Pool to wait for Pauline & Vonn, before that I mit my bro, Raymond we go 721 eat dinner but I was on diet so I decided not to eat. Later on Vonn called mi said she & Pauline @ Small S11 having dinner as rain is quite big so they waited for mi @ Small S11. After that Raymond acc mi walk to SMall S11, Raymond go K Pool to mit his friends, left, Pauline & Vonn, we supposed to go Toa Payoh but end up to Bishan cos time is rushing as Pauline has Tagging. Den we took MRT to Bishan, inside the train we r the noisy ones. When we reached Bishan, we go walk ard, we went inside the Charles & Keith Shop, I aim alot of Shoes & bag but no money. Den I went in a shop called Mhysis(wrong spelling, I aim a black top cost 63.30SGD... sian..... Damn expensive.. While shopping, Pauline keep talking on the phone lo, so irritating.. Hmm, like onli mi & Vonn walk walk nia. Den we go back AMK, took a taxi to Vonn house den wait for her downstairs with Pauline inside the cab so fun having her inside the cab keep joking. Den I send songs to her phone cos she wan.. Wen Vonn came down we went to AMK K pool, but they playing Pool I nv play, cos I prefer Billiard.
After playing we acc Pauline tk taxi, time is rushing. Later on Mi & Vonn walk walk go see shoes. Den vonn waited for her bf, Sebas @ my house, den she playing with Ah Boy & Yang Yang... Den I tell her how I feel wen I told her bout my long long sis who said in her blog, cos I'm still thinking bout this since I saw her blog.. I saw the photo they took @ one of the Sis bdae @ Lunar, was quite jealous, its seems strange feeling in my heart(PAIN)........ But oso relieved cos now den I realised that they was so look down on mi, den been talking bad bout mi. What a disappointed!!!!! To them, I just a piece of SHIT................ Everything is just a memories, slowly everything will be forgotten, who knows they might wipe mi off from their heart. I dun wan anyone pity mi or acting, is so FAKE.......................

29-11-2008

2008-11-29T04:28:00.000-08:00

Today wake up @ 12 plus, den go AMK hub with my future sister in law. We go NTUC to buy things, buy alot of things, before that we go eat Ichiban. & tk alot of pic, nothing to do so just picture, picture lo. I reach hm bout 5 plus like tt, having a serious headache, den go see doc.. My head was too pain til I fall aslp.. My dear call mi said he is on his way back to spore, but so sad cant mit him cos I tot he back tml, den I tell my brother I tml den go out. Cos he tml going out with his gf, I got to tk cae the 2 little rascals, LOL... Now staying at home doing nothing, just suft net.. It was actually vey fun staying @ hm can save money. I no more money liao, stil dunno what to do. Thailand is in a mess now, cos it having a serious riot. So scared scared.. But I stil hope can go thr, cos I want to pray pray...I took pic today think can onli upload on Monday cos my computer no bluetooth devices, and my phone no memory card, cos my phone got quite alot of memory already..
Got to stop, updated on Monday..

26 Nov 2008

2008-11-25T22:12:00.000-08:00

Ytd went to AMK 226 temple, to ask God for Advise. I very scared wen is my turn, cos he is Dua Di Ya Bei (In Hokkien) He know what I wanna ask, he had warned mi not to attend any funeral till next year Chinese July over, & ask mi to change my temper, dun be busybody to go bother other ppl thing. After ytd thing he had tell mi, I tell myself not to be bad temper, must endure it. Even I had a creature Colleague very irriating 1, oso must dure it, cos he is leaving soon, I'm waiting for that day. After asking I go Dear house den the next day go hm bathe & change den go work.

Now just back from lunch at Yishun, Yishun had change alot they expand to another building. My boss, Winnie & mi we went to Yishun to eat. We been lead by our boss to the tp floor, is a Japanese food court everything is belong to Japan. I have eat this dunno what pork rice (not nice), Winnie eat, Terriyaki Rice (nice), plus my boss wan is Ramen (haven try but little onli). My boss eat not enuff so I ask him to share wif mi, cos I oso cant eat finish. The food court oso got sell Sushi 20 small roll onli $2.40, ok la quite worth it. I onli know that we eat very long, cos Japan rice eat very easily full 1, & somemore very hot bad thing is no soup, no good....

Den we tk 854 from Yishun Interchange to go bk office. Mi & Winnie keep chatting, second time liao se nv slp.. Everytime we go out for lunch she will slp in the bus while we gg bk to office. Now in the office doing nothing.. hmm cannot say one, now boss give mi 400 units to ship out, ytd 200 now again 200
sian..
Updated again..............

Haha the Pic I add is my young times.. so short the hair...

25 Nov 2008

2008-11-24T18:06:00.000-08:00

Ytd went to AMK with Sandy & Pauline, we go 728 to eat. I had Pig Stomach soup, Sandy had whip potato, den we wnet Kpool, I was playing Billiard with my bro, Raymond, Sandy & Pauline playing pool, beside my table there is a group of small kids toking so loud, shit.. So noisy.. After playing, we 3 ladies went to Hub MOS Burger to company eat as she haven eat her dinner yet, den we chat & having fun, haha... Haiz lack of Vonn, she busy with Sebas, hmmm... den after MOS we go NTUC & buy goodies, den I found something interesting Vodka Cranberry, I brought 6, as is very cheap, buy 1 get 2 free, one can cost $3.95 tt means 3 for $3.95, haha... Sandy brought 3 cos she wanna try out 1st, den she brought Picnic Ham while Pauline brought Sushi. Later on, mi & Pauline go queue up 1st as Pauline has Taggin she got to reach hm by 10 else big trouble. While walking we thinking of gg Jogging, Badminton or Gym, haha I think I need to go to kill off my FATS.. So we hurry to the taxi stand luckily not so mani ppl.. Pauline send us back, Mi 1st, Sandy & Pauline last.. Miss the days we go clubbing, no one else just 3 of us. Sandy & Jasper are ok liao, they r more lovely & Pauline wrking now stable too. Vonn acc Sebas as Sebas court postponed, haiz.. Y like tt?

Mi reach hm b4 10, just like what I told my dear I will reach hm by 10, he nv mit mi cos he got things to do. Hmm wondering how long will we last ? I dun care le, just normal ba, I know when I'm sad, I still have my Bro & Sis around mi.

23 of Nov -2008

2008-11-23T19:03:00.000-08:00

Today is my sad day, is a long story. Half a day le, he nv msg mi or call mi at all. I have send lots of msg to him but he nv reply one. Is it I very "fang" so he do not wish to reply or he reali change.. I've been thinking wat should I do, I have no confidence in myself, I couldn't trust anyone at all, onli HIM. Should I let go, & go to the life when I go drink every wed, Fri & Sat, stay like tt till I have left in this world. I believe that once ppl r die, every problem will be solved. Sometimes I feel I cant breathe at all, lots of things coming to mi, I gg to burst out.
I was a gal who reali like to think alot, those cant happen I can oso go & think tt way. I know this annoying ppl but I cant control at all. I wan to be back like last time, Cheerful Meimei is. I know I will make those who reali care bout mi worry, I just need time to think what should I do.

I onli want say this to my dear,

*Dear, please why don't you try to think it over Life without you now is not the same cuz I'm still loving you Give our love another try before you turn and walk away Cuz my love for you is still in my heart*.

I wanna be a gd gal, no clubbing..... If you reali leave mi, I believe I will getting more worst den before.

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2008-11-06T21:51:00.001-08:00

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My birthday @ Fly

2008-11-04T21:08:00.000-08:00

I wanna thanks thoe who attend my bdae, I was so drunk tt nite.... Thanks to my Boss & Michael lo, for the waterfall.. Mix lots of drink.. Waterfall, Chivas, Martell, Beer, Hennessy, Burbon Coke... Argh, no wonder I damn drunk... Lucky did not do anything which is Pai Seh wan... haha...

Mi & Dear @ Flyer

2008-11-04T21:04:00.000-08:00

5-Nov-2008

2008-11-04T19:20:00.000-08:00

Today is a sunny day, I went to work @ 9 plus.. My company having a serious Rentrenchment, heard news that my dept will be of the target too. Tml is my boy bdae,dunno wat to buy for him no money liao. Hopefully tonight will let mi strike 4D,if not I dunno how to survive.. Family is waiting for mi to support.My dear has no money too, he is looking for a job even though he has his own job on every Monday, but @ least he wan to find a new job. He love mi alot & treat mi very gd too. I love him too... Now my wish is to earn more money, be gd to my family.. I wan to forget my past, my everything which is bad. Now I'm leading a peaceful life wif my family. Monday to Fri work, Fri nite & sat acc my Dear, Sun bring 2 kids out like a family.. I love my life now...
Hmm, got to back to work now.

I miss my Sisters, Brother and Friends...

29 Oct 2008

2008-09-29T00:00:00.000-07:00

Today is a hot weather, no wonder my temper oso nt gd. I wake up late maybe from Thurs till Sun I did not go wrk so I rest very long. Boss not happy lo, he nag nag.. Sometimes I cannot tahan.. But anyway he is a good boss liao always give in to mi.. My new colleague, Vincent very funny he act sissy so fucking real lo.. At first he came here I do not like him cos I feel he very tok cock, but lately he is ok, can joke joke.. Hahaha..
Wow, my birthday coming, but i'm not happy, I wish someone was here with mi but NO.. think onli my few sis & friends ba..Now is 3.11pm, I feel so tired, & abit hungry.. But i was on dieting leh, cannot eat too much..hmm, boss coming liao.. go to updated other day..

3 pretty babes in St James

2008-09-21T22:30:00.000-07:00

22 Sep 2008

2008-09-21T21:03:00.000-07:00

Today is a gd weather, this early morning had a heavily rain. But my mood is not tt gd, I do not know have I chose the correct person. He still cant forget his ex, so do I but i did not tell him, cos I tink this is onli an excuse. Last Sat, I went to St James to attend my friend's bdae, Ben. Den i go alone, wen I reach there I saw Alvin, Gary, & friends included my ex-schoolmates. I mit my Rain Jie, & her friends. I'm @ Power House but my heart is @ CCK.. Shit dunno y oso.. No I cant do tt, I mux have my own style.. Hmm, now in the office doing nothing cos last few days busy like siao. Haiz tts called work, if too free, tts not work liao.. haha...Now waiting for Boss to get ready for lunch..
Think of canceling my leave bcos of my sensitive I very sad, SOB SOB... Supposed to go KL, but no more liao. He still angry wif mi!!! Gals r petty so do Guys.. there is alot of things I wanna to say, but I dunno wat to say, where to start. SOb SOB

27 Aug 2008

2008-08-26T19:27:00.000-07:00

Long time nv updated liao, on 21 Aug 2008 something bad happen. My darling mum pass away due to something. I was actually having my dinner @ Geylang for my Frog Leg Porridge but when I was having halfway, my darling msg mi said her mum is in danger doc ask the whole family to go dwn. I was very worry, & sense not right so I keep calling my darling. Den my darling msg mi her mum pass away, I quickly called her to console her, den I dun wan to eat le I rush down to TTSH for her. When I reached thr, the moment I saw her I hug her cos she cry very badly. Den my nedphew hug mi say "Ah Ma die liao" den I quickly hug him.. I go & c her mother after that, her mum was peacefully pass away.. I saw her brother, her bro was more sad dn anyone. Den after doing everything, I acc my darling to her In Law house, den we nv slp but till 4am we go slp cos the next morning we got to wake up very early.. The next morning we wake up, my darling mother in law cook hot dog & fish fillet for us, so gd wake up got food to eat.. So envy her. Den after eating, we rushed down to Darling mother aMK house to wait for the funeral ppl to come to tent up the things. Until dunno what time, the casket ppl tk her mum body come to prepared everything... Her family was very sad, I can see...I acc her till Sun everything over.. I will cut short, the rest I leave to my Darling to fill den i go cut & paste.. Her blog is under my blog link..
Updated again..

21 Aug 2008

2008-08-20T20:17:00.000-07:00

Today wheather is very gd, is so windy till I dun feel hot. Ytd my sis give birth to a baby gal, muz be very very cute, feel like visiting her but my dad just pass away last year I dun wan pantang. Just hope she recover soon, cos give birth nid to rest more. Ytd I went to AMK central wif my colleague to buy some gorceries, is so funny the 3 of us joking ard.. haha I buy alot of things as house needed ma, Mattress la, eggs la is a tray lo, fried Bee Hoon for sat to Fried is the first time I fried nv fried b4 scared not nice, den buy my dog food haiz no more promotion liao sianz. Den we went to mac donald carpark to wait for Winnie (NINI) Ah Lao to cum & pick us up. NINI Ah Lao is coming to our company & wrk liao but is @ Level 5 as a shipping oso. Now NINI relieved liao wun worry for her Ah Lao. Den wen I reach hm, is so tiring man.. Feel like sleeping straight but nid to settle my PC, so bei chek.. Stupid PC, I tink I got to learn how to use Windows Vista, den I can settle my PC easily..
Last nite had a bad dream, I dream of my Nephew BaoBei Siang siang, is out of sudden lo muz be missing him too much. I dream of I long time nv see him, den he became very fat, & tok to mi very rude, from the day he know how to tok he nv tok to mi so rudely, he know I dun like, & he became very big size la, tanned la. I was so shocked, den I rem Mary my darling show mi his school result he get onli 12.5% & is very bad wan, den I ask him y so little per cent, den he answered mi rudely & said is 21.5%, I see wrongly, den I ask him Y no manners in toking to mi, den he answer mi bk, is mi nv look for him la, nv care bout him anymore. I explained to him that I was very busy wif my wrk, but he is always my Baobei. den he dun bother he walk away, den wen I shouted for him, he disappeared liao. Is it a hint that I reali no time nv see him liao, cos last time he always look for mi, till his father in trouble & my wrk is very tied up my time that I've reali no time for him..I dote him alot one this nephew, whenever his mother wanna beat him, he will shouted for mi, den Mi & my darling whom is his mother will argue over my Nephew. Hmmm...
Tonight I surpposed to play mahjong but the person is wrking as we nid his house to play MJ, haiz bo bian la, he nid to wrk part time tonight till SAt. So disappointing man..
Gotto go bk to wrk liao, updated again.

18 Aug 2008

2008-08-17T21:33:00.000-07:00

Today I was late again, but b4 10 1 reach office liao, doing the same thing on computer, wait for it to run den go for breakfast.. Busy browsing my Darling Devil blog, wow she wrote alot leh, tink of last time we was in Primary & Sec School, she nv so hardwrking lo wrote so much in her Compo lo. After browsing her Blog, found tt she still worried bout her mum, of cos will worry la, real mum leh. Hope after this incident she will know her or family is very important to her. Cos her family background I know very well den other ppl, i hope those who realil care for her dun just said said onli, I wan her to live peacefully,dun tink of anyhow. Nowadays ppl r fake onli true friends or sis is real.. Hee now is lunch time waiting for Brandon our ex-colleague.. He was on leave todae so he very free to go lunch wif us. While waiting I updated my blog. Ok he reach liao so I gtg, Back from lunch den updated again.

I'm bk from my lunch liao, updated again. We went to AMK central to eat, den Brandon said need my help to sell off ph, so I tink of Patrick den I called him he gv mi a price is $150 not bad price. So I ask Brandon can or not, he say ok. Den we walk to his shop near the Guardian Parmaecy so saw Mel @ thr den tok awhile but less tok liao cos dunno wat to tok. Den Mel told mi Mary gt look for him, den I said I onli know Mary went to AMK central nia. Now bk from lunch abit slagging feel like sleeping, thanks to my NINI lo, she suddenly msg mi in the afternoon ask whether I'm gg out, den I know she wanna play MJ, haha.. Den I said ok lo, wat time she aid 8pm cum fetch mi wif her bf.. Hoo, play till 1 something, so shag sia.. But lose $5 nia, heng ar, we play 2 pot.. actually 1st pot I lose quite alot, den 2nd pot I heng lo, lose $5.. Reali very heng lo.. Otherwise no nid to eat liao, cos just brought a PC for $**** sian damn expensive. But nv regret la, cos got use ma den is ok. Hmmm. Just now NINI ask mi wanna play MJ today but I meeting someone leh, dunno how.. Wait till she found leg den c how ba.. Got to stop liao, quite shag now, & is very shag..

14 Aug 2008

2008-08-14T01:49:00.000-07:00

Today I taking a half day, too tired liao.. Having a toothache, is been a year liao now pain again, it muz be mi always eat sweet. My partner (Nini) buy 皮蛋粥 for mi for my lunch cos I cant eat hard food. So sweet hor On Tuesday I was buying a computer with my Nini( Colleague ) @ AMK Courts.. it cost mi a bomb lo, KNN. But buy already no choice more gd den no nid to tk out laptop in & out very troublesome. Last nite playing Mahjong, haiz play 1 pot onli win 6 dollars...Beta den nv win... Den after that I go eat Frog Leg Poridge haha, very nice.. cost onli 23 including vegetables. Yum Yum.. Tml is Friday, dunno wan to go St James, but feel very bored liao always go club. Alex keep asking mi go drink wif him leh, I feel very sianz.. I didnt mit my Ah Jie, Cindy quite long time, & I miss her alot.. I very worried for her whether have she found a job, I just want her to have a stable job anyting I dun bother liao. I know she always stay @ hm anyhow think, though I was not with her but my heart is wif her.. Hmm, now feeling abit hungry liao dunno wat to eat, oso cannot eat hard food.. Somemore today I have to go hm straight to wait for the Computer to be delivered @ my home....
Updated again ba..

Story regarding 亲梅竹杩

2008-08-12T02:39:00.000-07:00

This is a story bout 2 person who grow up together everyone tot they will married as they r 亲梅竹杩. do u all have 亲梅竹杩? Is long so read patiently as some sentences is quite confused. Sorry bout that.. Actually their story is long is I cut short, is based on true story... Their name is W & J..

W & J was being look after by a same nanny since they r baby as both their parents is busy wrking. They played together even Kindergarden, Primary school they nv leave each other..They even had a vow that when they grow up if either one of them is 27 both of them is single they will married. Untill they went to secondary school, they went to different school. Things had changed.
That was when they r 14 years old I think ba.. J has a new bf, W was happy for J. J shared everything with W regarding she & her bf. There is one day J quarrel with her bf, so J called up W. After hearing what happen W went to J house to console her. W lend J his shoulder to cry on, after J had cry finish, W try to homour her & J laughed. The next day, J patch up with her bf. So their life just carry on, & sumtimes J will mit up W for Dinner or Lunch. W had a gf too, J was happy for him too. Soon J get married with shotgun, so she informed W must attend her wedding but yet he can't attend. So J was very disappointed. J was not happy in her wedding so she divorced with her husband, J was sad so J tink of W but she scared that W gf will not be happy, so J just call up & ask how is W, but W sense somthing is not right, so W just tell J to wait at her house for him. W leave his gf at his house to look for J. J was touched but feel guilty as she know that W gf at his house. There is one night, J was being peep by a Peeping Tom so she shouted den she quickly called up W but when she called up W, W gf answer the call, so J decided not to tell W le, she just hang up but W called up in the end it must be his gf tell him. After J told him everything, W want to come over J place but end up he quarrel with his gf, so J ask W not to come..So they have not been contact anymore onli once in a month to ask how is each other. W broke off with his gf.. So he went to J house to wait for J back home.. When both of them talk halfway, W suddenly confessed to J: "I love u since young, I always think of u, I see u sad my heart will pain, I dun mind you have a kid, I just wan to be with u." J stunned a few seconds & tell W he is just joking right?? Den suddenly W kissed J, J pushed him away & say it is too sudden she can't accept it. From that night onwards, J start to avoided W but W keep calling J & J did not want to answer the call. So W give up.. So is been a year, J has not heard bout W anymore onli heard her family that W has a new gf.. J was quite sad. Though J had a few relationship but all seems can't last long. Till one day, J went home & saw W with his new gf. J did not say hello to him, she just went straight to her room, after closing a room she feel she can't breathe & feel pain in her heart, den she now den realised that she had fall in love with W too, but everything is too late. So they just carry on with her life.
Few months later, W called up J & ask for dinner. So J agreed as she wanna see him too, J wanted to ask him is he still with his gf but W seems not in a gd mood so she did not ask. So they have a dinner on the first day. W fetch J everyday, it was like bf fetch gf from work. J did not sense anyting as wen they was young W oso do that, after school they will mit up for lunch or dinner. One day, W told J he is getting married, J was so shocked & look at W slowly. W hold J hand & said: "I getting married liao, do u love mi, do you wanna be with mi, if u love mi I will call off the wedding now. You know I love u, till now I still love u, pls, pls tell mi." J let go his hand & laughed. Although J wan to accept him but she do not wan to hurt W gf. So she said to him & laughed: "hahaha, dun be silly, we r friends onli, & very very gd friends. I dun love u at all, be a gd husband & father in future. hahaha" den J ask W to send her home, on the way they did not say anything just keep quiet until reached J house J look at him & said: "Promise mi no matter wat we r always best friends & buddy. Be a gd husband" after W promise her, she just get off the car & go home. Wen J reach home, J cry loud, she cannot dure it anymore she feel very hurt.
Finally W get married, still rem before W married. W was online so do J, W send a music video clip to J, & ask J not to forget him, J promised..
Is been a year le, J heard from her family that W is going to be a father soon, J felt happy to know that W is very 幸福..

The end.

Nightmare

2008-08-07T20:10:00.000-07:00

On Wed 6 of Aug is a nightmare to mi, I do not know wat to do... Just feeling lost.. I feel like just end up my life like that, den I tink of my darling, Mary.. I cannot cos I nid to protect her & my bao bei leh.... i just feel is a nightmare, I wun go club myself liao, I muz have ppl acc mi go. Ytd I did not go wrk, Boss ask mi to rest @ hm, not to tink too much so I nv go wrk or out, I just stay @ hm do nothing. I keep tinking of the secenrio I start to get scared...This is the most serious problem I ever had.. If not for tat idiot I will keep tinking of gg clubbing meh? Wen is my Xin Fu arriving, my sis husband coming out today, she muz be very happy. I'm so happy for her... From the days I drop my Thai amulet "Tangga", I knew sumting will b happen, & now is reali happen liao lo. In future I oso dunno wat will happen liao I'm so scared & worried. After that thing happen, I started to be quiet & dun feel like toking to anyone..I scared ppl will say I deserved it, cos is I go clubbing ma... Tts y I rather keep inside my heart. Tonight I watching Movies yeah, watching "Money not Enough 2" heard is not a very gd show but different ppl different taste. I may be like it or hate it..

Got to wrk now.. Updated again wen I'm free, too busy as taking other ppl Job scope..

1st Aug 2008

2008-07-31T23:49:00.000-07:00

Today is a new month, & is 1st day Hell Door open.. Dunno my dad got cum out or not. Last night pray till quite late & I cant slp @ all know y, cos I miss my dad. Nomarlly is I help him to burn the Insense Paper but now is mi & my bro. I told myself not to cry, but the scenerio keep caming to my mind on the day how he pass away. We dun even have the chance to tok to him or see him go.. My darling, Mary her mother is in the hospital of lots of illness this is I oso know, cos mi & her know so mani years liao, her mum just like my mum.. I wanted to go mit my darling, is not I dun wan, got ppl ask mi Y never mit her, my reason is she confirm cry & if she cry I confirm cry. She should noe, & if I make her laugh I scared she might tink tt I nv treat her problem seriously. We r Angel & Devil y things happen to us like tt??? First is mi Y now is my darling?? I dun understand.

Dear God, if u wanna punish, just punish mi alone not my darling Mary Huang Y***... You already taken Angel dad awa, u still wanna tk away Devil Mum away meh??? No u cant do that.. We wun mess up the world, we will be gd gal...Angel & Devil have been sister for so mani year liao, this things is everyone know. Though we r far apart but our heart is Linked. God pls blessed us. I love my daddy & Mummy..

My Darling Devil, u always hide things from mi, u tink I nv care meh, is I dun wan c u sad, & I'm always wrk till so late, even can go out time is late night.. Our heart is linked.. Dun u dare to forget.. Har??? Dun tink too much.. I love u mucks... Rem wat I put in Friendster Angel & Devil r sister forever...

25 july 2008

2008-07-24T20:15:00.000-07:00

Today I was late again for wrk, my whole body was so pain.. Thanks to the **** lo I oso dunno who, I onli know she push mi or wat den we had a fight. This is the 1st time I had a fight @ dragonFly lo, sianz.. I was oso drunk liao tt wed night, so disgraceful oso.. How I wish can rewind tt night den I relaxed dun throw my temper.. now while i writtng my blog my boss is beside mi lo, hahaha.. My buddy was sick having fever plus Flu, & my new colleague is leaving soon & today is her last day she onli wrk for 2 months onli, dunno who is the next 1, I hope is a guy la, can carry heavy things, gals whr got strength.. hahaha.. Den Alice wun be carry heavy things..
Later lunch time we got to go Techpoint & eat.. Farewell Lunch.. got to go lo, updated again, gg off now liao

22 July 2008

2008-07-22T00:37:00.000-07:00

Ytd go Bugis to shop, brought a new slippers & change it as my heels make my leg pain.. Wow so mani clothes, but onli brought 1 shirt cum suit is a whole suit, wondering if go toilet how to pepe.. After that I went home by taking the bus 851, is a long journey & I think alot of things where there is happy & sadness oso. Wen I reach home already 11 liao lo, wow my show finish liao..SAd. After that Sandy my sis called mi & we chatted of cos plus gossip haha.. After Sandy put dwn the phone, Cindy called mi. We r heading to Chinatown today cos I haven brought any heels & clothes. My heels all spoilt liao, I muz buy else one day I might fall to death I oso dunno even though I feel like dying.. Today lunch time I treat my boss & buddy to Jack Place as I gg to tk my bonus liao. Athough my bonus is onli a little, but @ least can treat them once as they was always tou mi laugh wen I'm upset. & my boss he nv scold mi whenever I'm late.. Still waiting for tml cos is WED haha ladies nite.. haha.. Clubbing time.. yeah..

Opps got to stop liao, wrking time as I'm now @ office..

Miss someone but tt person make mi commit suicide..

I will always rem him wenever I see my scars.

4-July-2008

2008-07-03T21:13:00.000-07:00

Long time nv updated le, too lazy.. This week I very guai nv late for wrk, very early, instead is my Buddy Winnie late for work den I got to wait for her to come den can go eat breakfsst. Hmm.. was thinking wanna go whr tonight? Dun feel like meeting Alex, who ask him make mi angry.. I rather go club lo, maybe go DragonFly, St james or Bangkok, but after wrk I go hm to c my bao bei.. After they slp den I go out, anyway tml no wrk.. haha.. I waited very long le, cos Monday to Thursday I nv go out, after wrk go for Movies la, Dinner la, den go home slp.. Time past very fast, now already July 2008. My dad has left 8 months le, cos he was pass away on 4 of Nov 2007. Tml my grandma birthday dun feel like going cos scared they will feel sad if I'm going cos think of my dad. hmm ...
Tt Alex nv call mi the whole day, tonight I muz have lot of fun.. hahaha
Oh I got to go back to work, updated other day ba...

30-5-08

2008-05-29T22:29:00.000-07:00

Hmm , today I'm late for wrk again, wake up late.. I have slp enuff liao leh but still late.. haiz.. My leg is so pain dunno y leh, frm Monday till now pain til like that, muz b that Team Building la, go Bowling the whole day, but it was fun. . I'm the onli gal in the team lo, I so malu.. My boss ar, very funny, & humor lo, keep coming in my room chatting with us. Dunno wen he gg to Power House wearing his crocodile Polo-T real brand lo not Chiong wan.. haha. I like to tease my boss but he dote mi lo.. Tts wat my boss perfect is.. My best buddy hor look @ movie again, "Ah Long Ptd." Nv die b4.. New colleague is sitting opp her she still dare to watch movie.. Dunno my Dar got mit mi or not??? Today Angeline bday leh, dunno my mummy Irene gg or not, cos heard she quarrel with her mother in law, kao so fierce man, Real fight lo, heard mother in law & daughter in law but nv heard fight b4.. She have move out the house with her hubby.. I call her she say she feel more happy now after moving out..

Ok la, now gg to wrk liao, boss beside mi.

To b continued.............

29 May 08

2008-05-29T22:14:00.001-07:00

Hmm, updated lo.. I feel so tired lo, slp for 1 hour onli ba I tink.. Tt A****** lo, nv let mi slp.. I was @ wrk plc like a half dead, I can go act "Land of the Dead"... Hooo, keep yawning lo. Tink is ytd go Power House ba, drink like hell lo. But luckily nv do any disgraceful things, haha...

I met him, though he is not handsome but he make mi feel comfortable wen I'm near him. Tts is wats ppl call feel ba. Let time slowly go, den slowly we will know.. Is I'm scared oso as to mi thr is no such thing is forever.. Just let it natural.. I'm feel happy but sumtimes upset.. No money of cos, sianz..

I feel happy for my Bro now, he found himself a gf, is gd but sumtimes make mi jealous cos he treat mi nt like last time tt gd liao. but of cos attitude is beta wen he is toking to mi.. Wow, my future sister in law muz be toking gd things in front of him.. Thanks to her..

Dear father,

Since u pass away last year Nov till now, almost 7 months le, hw r u now? Did God tk care of u well, I ask God to tk care of u tink he will do that.. I tell him u r my onli Daddy, & hope u r well taken care. U dun worry bout mi, there is someone taking care of mi.. I know if u r around, u will ask mi not to trust guys easily, but I know is my own choice of that.. Pa, since Ah Ma know u hv pass away, she sad everyday. @ 1st she cry everyday now beta liao, but I didnt dare to visit her cos I scared that if she saw mi & Kor kor, she will cry again, Uncle has kept all yr photos tt prevent her to miss u & cry again.. Mummy is ok, still doing the same things, look @ 4D & toto, this is wat u & her always do.. I can sense Mummy miss u alot, she put yr photo in yr wallet. Someone told mi he saw his parents stil loving till now, he felt happy for them , I oso wish u still alive to b wif Mummy, & not tt bitch that u keep outside.. I dun blame u for cheating Mummy cos u r my dad.. Forever in my heart.. I love u dad..
God, Pls tk care of my dad if u saw him. Thank You God..

8.36 pm 14 may 08

2008-05-14T05:36:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, I nw @ friend place waiting for MJ, very long lo, if I know I stay @ hm to watch TV... Now writing blog cos nothing to do, c ppl blog.. Later gg Powerhouse, heard S** gg too, but I feel uneasy, this afternoon I alrdy feel uneasy liao lor, uneasy wif D*****... Dunno y oso leh.. Sianz.. They r so quiet playing MJ, tink even Fly coming oso can the fly sound.. They look serious to, think I later muz b quiet oso, else dunno they will gv mi a face or not Later gg club le, should b happy leh, dunno y I dun feel happy.. Now I still waiting for my turn. Now I changing songs, cos they r listening to 933, very bored lo.. Listening to Sweety songs.. hee, just addicted to 1 of their song 爱情是怎么一回事, is quite a meaningful song.. I love it... This computer very lousy cannot listen to Imeem, hmmm... Got to stop le, they play till Bei le..

To B continued..................

14-May-2008

2008-05-14T00:05:00.000-07:00

Hmm, today I wake up late for wrk, I woke up @ 9.30 am, oh gosh, my boss gonna kill mi this time.. Thanks to S** I will late, but anyway enjoy the company of him.. Tts wat call FEEL.. hmm, he doesnt know, of cos I dun express out just like normal friends ba...I was confusing now whether tonight wanna play MJ, cos last Monday I lose 38 dollars, somemore tonight I gg Powerhouse.. Now I'm in the offce feel slpy.. abit no mood... Dunno y, I feel uneasy form my heart, something inside my heart poking hard...
I think I stop here, updated again... Gonna go smoke now..

To B Continued......

13-May-2008

2008-05-12T22:43:00.000-07:00

Hmm, long time nv updated le... Alots of happening lo, Every Wed Mi & my sis Pauline go Power House @ St James.. Is fun, we drink, dance, watch drama like ppl fighting.. Long time nv club le, now addicted le, last time wen I was young not that young now addicted le.. Last Wed, 7 of May 2008, I know a guy named Sa*, @ first I dun like him cos I tot he is a playboy, but wen slowly tok to him he is ok, & dunno y after he send mi bk hm, I've been tinking of him . B4 him, I knew a Malaysian guy, I was shocked by this Malaysian guy name Alan a hairstylist, but I dun like hairstylist, cos very playboy lo.. Bk to Sa*, on Fri i went to JB, my mind keep thinking of him.. Dunno y leh, till now oso miss him... I knew he dun like mi, is mi onli la, so I try to forget him but till today I receive a msg in Frienster from him, shit he make mi up again..

I feel like looking for a partner who can company mi, is not I lonely, my friends & colleague r ard mi, is onli a kind of feel tt I needed. After wrk, waitng for mi to knock off, acc mi for dinner, wen I reach hm acc mi chat awhile on the phone, Wed go clubbing with mi.. hmmm is hard la, nowadays guys cannot b trusted.. But to this Sa*, dunno y I still thinking of him.. Help mi... I fall deep deep le... Maybe I should quiet, wats yours is yours.. I just scared tt if I'm reali attached, one day he will say he like mi how... hmmm..

I end my blog now, updated again..

To be Continued......................

16-Apr-2008

2008-04-16T01:09:00.000-07:00

Hmm, long time nv updated le.. Today hv a mood to go clubbing, but suddenly feel very tired.. Do not noe Y, maybe I'm too busy @ my wrk plc... Just tinking of gg powerhouse, drink like hell, dance like hell.. den go hm slp... I hv 2 weeks nv go club le, I'm not addicted just feel like gg onli... To relieve my stress.. Now I'm in my office updating my blog, dunno how's my sis le. Hope she doing fine.. Her husband is inside the prison, I can understand her feeling.. Although I'm not beside her but she always in my heart.. love her..
I'm tired now, mind is blur blur now. Got to stop, updated another time..

The photos we took @ MOS

2008-03-19T22:30:00.001-07:00

20 Mar 2008

2008-03-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

Last nite mi, Pauline, Sandy & Kelvin went top dbl O, den wen we on the way to there on Kelvin car. Wen we reach thr, I teased Pauline that she confirm kana check-IC, den reali kana check.. So we hv no choice we go Powerhouse, actually PowerHouse is more fun den MOS or DBL O.. So we stay @ Powerhouse till 2am something should be ba.. Den we go MOS, actually we all high liao especially Kel the driver, poor thing he got to drive & yet hv to send us back. I feel Kel is cute but he is wat kind of person I do not know. Den we stay @ MOS till 4 gg to 5 am, den we go AMK big S11 to eat Minced Meat noodle.. After that we go hm, Sandy is the last one to get down & Pauline wil b the 1st wan cos she scared that her mum beat her up again. Wen I reach hm already gg to 6 le ba, I oso not sure. I onli know I slp for 1 n half hour onli. I was worry for Kel, cos he stay @ west side.. Afraid that he will slp halfway while driving. But wen I know he is already reach hm, den I relieved & go bk to slp liao. I reach office is already 9 le ba, ohh lucky nv late but waste a $7 cab fare lo, fuck rite. Haiz but bo bian rather den kana scold, anyway today I cant tok cos I lost my voices to a sexy voices, LOL.. Drink too much le la, I must stop clubbing liao, even next week dun go liao I cannot tahan le.. Tonight I got a colleagues from CSC IT ppl gg to Powerhouse tonight, I feel like gg but no voices liao.. Too bad cos that CSC quite handsome oso but inside office beta dun hv any rumors.. This few weeks wed always go club, wow spend quite alot. Later muz settle 265 dollars bill. Haiz sianz
Bye, got to go wrk now, updated other time.

17-Mar-2008

2008-03-16T20:57:00.000-07:00

Long time nv updated liao, as busy doing some thing. Time pass very fast, already Mar le. I did wrong things on last Wed night. I shouldn't drink too much & do something which ruin my reputation. I do not know how now, I just feel is a shameful things which is end up on mi. I just gv my colleague scold , he warned mi not to do this anymore. Haiz I oso dunno y I became like that? I wan back to normal to myself. I reali feel like stiop clubbing but I just wanna dance & drink to drunk onli. My maid is here, she is gentle but @ first is gd wan la, lastly we dunno wan la.. But indeed she is helpful. Lets stp here, my boss is back from reservist liao, got to wrk lo.

Updated again.

25 Feb 2008

2008-02-24T21:28:00.000-08:00

Wow, almost a month I did not updated my blog le.. I was busy doing my personal things.. I now on the office could not write too much. I next month gg back to study liao, gg to achieve my dreams.. On Valentine's Day, I was not happy, even I receive presents I oso not tt happy.. Dunno y too.. Haiz, my sis , Pauline gg in soon, I very sad, she always make mi laugh.. Wen I upset she will try to make mi laugh, she some sort my kai xin guo.. I pray she will go in onli 3 months tts enuff for her le.. I have been having strange dreams which look so real, so horrible.. My life now is a mess, dunno wat to do, onli go steps by steps.. One day go one day. I onli know, on 2009 everything, my life will change.. I tink these few days I very suai dunno y, must go pray le, anyway later I got to buy god pendant to avoid those bad luck..
My supervisor (Boss) go for reservist le, haha.. Is our world liao.. He came back on 14 of March.. Yeah, we can have fun in the office lo, but still cannot late lo..
I gonna stop now, got to wrk liao, alot of paper wrk got to b done.

I will updated soon..

23 Jan 2008

2008-01-23T10:12:00.000-08:00

Today I'm late for wrk almost 3 hours ba, I cant wake up, my friend supposed tocall mi to wake up, but last nite I charged hp in my mum room, so I nv hear the ph ring or alarm ring. Wen I reach my wrk place already 10.30 le, can c my boss face black black.. I sneak into office but he still saw mi, so I bo bian make him laugh lo, luckily he not angry le. Today I having lunch with a hp shop boss Patrick. He is nice to mi, but dunno y I tink he that kind of filrt firlt guy. His gf came & look for him today, as my sis call mi & tell mi. So I started to avoid him to prevent misunderstanding. Den mi, Pauline, Francis, Mary & my nephew go & hv dinner @ 728, we chat alot & feel that Pauline has grown up but very native. Ppl say wat she believe haiz, hope her ears dun b so light. Later we go buy things, den go hm, reach hm alrdy gg to 11 le. Yawn... So tired le

Updated next time

I miss my father I wanna mit him in my dreams

16 Jan 08

2008-01-16T03:58:00.000-08:00

Today I was on MC, cos my gastric attack again. So mani years le, now is the 3rd time so seriously. My doc told mi, my gastric attack again, & he ask mi not to drink milk, coffee, chicken, pork & including Fish, I so sad. This muz be 4 days , I muz eat onli porridge. Now my gastric still pain. Last Fri I went to company dinner & I do not know that drink is Chinese Tea n I go & drink it. I was very allergic to Tea, but the tea was sweet, so I tot is a special tea. So at night, my gastric was so pain. I still looking for the diecast motor bike model, it was CBR1000RR. It was so hard to find til I gg crazy soon le, his bdae is on 12 of Feb yet now alrdy quite rush. Tml I b gg wrk even I was on MC for 2 days but, staying @ hm very boring. After wrk I wan to go Bugis walk walk, c can buy the diecast or not, hopefully I can find it.

End here, I updated again

9 Jan 2008

2008-01-09T07:59:00.000-08:00

Now is night time, got lot of thing come in my mind. I miss my dad, I always put on a strong & brave act in front of my friends, I know they know I was very upset. In their eyes I'm a strong gal, but wenever I saw couple or my surrounding sis they hv a happy family & R/S, to mi I'm nobody. I oso need love, nid someone to care, to love, but there is no one I can reali rely on. I'm still waiting for someone. @ the moment I cant think of anything, I hv interview for Air Stewardess I hope to fly all over the world after I've hv settling my family things as my Grandma still do not know thet my dad has pass away. I so worry till I cant slp, & hving nightmares. It will affect my work, today I just lose my temper on my boss, I know my boss dote mi alot, so I hv oso try to make him laugh, den we ok le. I oso happy that I stil hv my sis, Mary & Winnie Law & Winnie Lim with mi. I love them.. & oso San San I always wanted to call her but I scared I disturbing her cos she had a happy family, so I nv call her. Hope she can understand..

I trying to slp now.. Updated again.

28 Dec 2007

2007-12-27T22:55:00.000-08:00

Today is 28 finally 2007 will b gone & 2008 is coming. Last Sunday I just came out from JB to walk, wif my friend.. He came & fetch mi @ my hse here, den we go JB together. He is patient wen I go buy heels, he will wait for mi outside. He said buy my things 1st den buy his things, he is caring & patient no wonder I will like him, but problem is he like freedom, he said le he like freedom, & do not wan in R/S anymore, maybe 1 day he will change his mindset & he will let mi know. I feel hurt & tired after hearing all this, today he IM mi but I nv reply him @ all. till now oso haven reply him. I dun feel like replying, this will make my feeling goes down. Last wed I just go Dbl O, so sian dun hv the feel that I'm enjoying, so I left early that nite. I miss him ba.. I'll stop here now, I'm wrking.. Updated other day

22 Dec 2007

2007-12-22T09:55:00.001-08:00

Oh Gosh, now I have a big problem. Today is my Dad 49 days, mi & my Bro was busy preparing. My Grandma wanted to come home from my Aunitie house, she say she is boring there & wanna come back, even my uncle oso cannot do anything. I already burst out, I do not know wat to do, we onli can do is to avoid her. I dunno wat will happen if she noe about it, maybe faint or crazy or something more worst which I do not wish to happen. Anyone can tell mi wat to do, I reali dunno wat to do. I cannot tk anymore blow, I will get crazy. Today my Dad got come back, I rem I was putting the chopsticks for him is straight & open abit, den 5 mins later I go see wat did I forget den I realised that the chopsticks was slant, den I ask my Brother did he move the chopsticks he say no, den few hours later , my Brother ask mi to look @ a very shocking things is the chopsticks become straight together & close up like he was telling us he had eat finish.. I swear I did not touch the chopsticks.

Pa, if u reali got things to tell mi or Kor, pls go to our dream. Pls pray for Ah ma & Mummy oso.. From baby till now I nv told u b4 I love u. I know that I keep toking back to u as u always dun tok nicely to mi, I know u care, worry & dote mi, is I dun listen other ppl advice, now I got this kind of bao Yin. I know u been worry bout money, & family problem, I will try my best to go study, work harder. Pls take care in a place which u will never had worries. The Hell or Heaven Boss will help us to take care u . We love u & will rem u forever. As we never ever accept the facts that u r reali leaving us forever....

21 Dec 2007

2007-12-20T20:15:00.000-08:00

Hey, I updated now la, MR KC..

I was having a half day today, buying my dad things for tmrw for praying 49 days. Last nite I have a wonderful nite, I was watching movies wif Eric, he is a special guy in my company but he is from different dept from, he was older den mi 1 year. I know I hv a feeling for him already le, but I keep inside my mind. He & I the same common we have a phobia towards R/S, we have a long tok wen we reach a place whr I do not know either, I onli know the place u face was sea & Jurong Island. I dunno wats his feeling to mi, he is gg Bangkok next year & he ask mi wanna go too, but I was oso dunno wanna go or not. I was oso not ready for anything yet. I long time nv mit up my sis le, dunno how is she le. Well hope she is happy. I wanted to go out wif him again, just love the feeling to be his side.

11 Dec 2007

2007-12-10T18:59:00.000-08:00

Its been long time I have not updated my blog. These few days have been raining & its rain very heavily, run & go.. To mi I'm a lazy person do not like to bring umbrella ard, it so troublesome lo. Now I'm wrking as usual very busy, now Dec le.. Long time nv go club le, must find one day go, maybe after settling my dad thing den try to arrange for a mit up wif my sis, I mean outside sis, long lost friends.... I miss them oso @ least they r type of person same like mi. I been buying clothes as to pack some of my old clothes & put aside. Buying clothes r like changing new life, I wan a new life of cos.. I just bk from my lunch, gotta stop now got lot of things to do.. Updated other time ba. Cheers

21 Nov 2007

2007-11-20T21:35:00.000-08:00

Today is a new day for mi, I was ready to wrk so I went to the bus stop as usual waiting for bus no 86. While waiting I was playing game but suddenly 86 came but it did not stop I was so blur & shocked den no choice got to tk a cab as I was late. Wen I reach plc oso as usual we gals go for breakfast, den we chit chat too. Out of sudden I miss my dad this morning, felt there is sumting missing of cos is my father, usually morning he will tok to mi, like telling mi to hurry up for wrk, or maybe buying breakfast for mi. I alrdy used to it having him ard, but now no more. To mi now love R/S is nothing to mi anymore le, I rather find someone love mi more den I love him. I know KK reali love mi, but there is sumting lack btween us, but I dunno wats tt. Last week I go shopping alone felt there is gd & bad. Good is nobody disturbing u & can sort lots of things in my mind, bad is felt lonely, example no one help u comments wen u r trying clothes..
I sprained my right hands, my shoulder bone is so pain till I cant lift up now... Actually today I hv the mood to go clubbing but my hand like that now sian liao le, my partner very gd help mi massage hee, I so envy her bf, everytime got free massage. I've stop here, updated another time.

Jen Slide Show

2007-11-17T10:41:00.001-08:00

14 Nov 2007

2007-11-14T00:36:00.000-08:00

Today morning heavy rain, I got no choice got to tk cab.. But is ok, very near near.. Last nite my ex call mi, he ask for a patch up.. I still thinking, cos my heart is confused & I still thinking of someone, he lives in East side... My ex wan to start all over again. I need to tk time.. Anyway no time oso as my dad just pass away. He say he will stay wif mi wen I need him..
Today Winnie, my colleague wear very lady like, is not like her... I hv decided to change her dressing wif the help of my another colleague, Joan... Like that her bf will b very grateful to us as we change her gf to a very pretty lady.. I reali not used to it to her new dressing man...But I like her more to b a ladylike.. After work maybe gg to watch movies ba, dunno wat to see oso..

12 Nov 2007

2007-11-12T01:24:00.000-08:00

Its been 8 days my dad leave us, I'm still not used to it. I used to have him to wake mi up early in the morning to go wrk. Although he is nagging but I already used to talk back to him & wen he is very angry I will b very happy. But now I reali regret of talking back to him, I should treat him nicer, is too late now he wun come alive anymore. Y this things will happen to mi & my family? My grandma still dunno anyting yet, she keep looking for my father, we got no choice to lie to her say that my dad go to KL to wrk, but my grandma seems dun believe it, Somemore my grandma dotes my dad the most. My grandma got to go back TTSH to check her heart on Dec 12, if she know bout this I dunno wat will happen, I cannot tk the 2nd blow... She is too old, I cant bear to lie to her oso, is no choice. I will leave my Auntie to break the news to my grandma.

Pa,

pls look after Ah Ma, she still dunno your things yet, Mummy oso cannot tk it, she been trying to control her tears in front of us, we know she is very sad.. if u are besides us, pls take care of Mummy. I'm sorry that I always make u angry, I will look after Mummy for u.

Yours dearest daughter
Meimei

My saddest Day

2007-11-08T06:55:00.000-08:00

On 4 Nov 2007, I would never forget this day.. I receive a call, saying my father was been sending to TTSH, few mins later I receive a call again, saying doctor wanna see us. Wen me & my brother reach the hosital we had a bad feeling. Wen we c the doc, the doc say sorry my father has pass away. My father was pass away as heart problem by drinking.. I was so shock that we burst out, so we waited awhile den we c our father body. He did not leave any words den just leave us, i keep shaking him, beat him, slapped his face he oso dun wan wake up, I just cut it short as I very sad le, & we prepared his funeral @ my house downstair for 3 days, my grandma still dunno yet, we cannot let her know as she loves my father alot if she know I dunno she can tk it or not. I'll stop here.. I very sad now, I cannot accept the fact that my father had leave us.. I'll nv accept..

3 Nov 2007

2007-11-03T10:59:00.000-07:00

Today I wake up quite late, I went to visit my Grandma @ TTSH.. Wen I reach thr, I saw my Grandma feeling beta I was very happy & relieved, tt time I still tinking of those nagative things.. I was so scared, now den I realised I dun miss HIM le, I hv totally dun hv the feelings for KC anymore. Anyway he got himself a gf le. **** msg mi on thurs wanna mit mi, but I got sumthing on so cant mit him, I knw he was disappointed but no choice, we chat till I go & order my food, tink he scared I dun wan to eat. He keep supporting mi & I very touch but no feelings. I dunno wat to do, now I onli wan to earn more money for my family, I onli know in June of 2008 I will b very xin fu & happy in the rest of my life. I will even consider to delete my frienster, msn, & my blog in next year. Onli that happen I will hv no more troubles..

Thank god for not tking my Grandma away, my Grandma is a great Grandma.. After the 2nd world war she has lost her husband & she got to support alot of kids. She used to wash plates... to support the family in those Kampong life till now I hv grow to b matured. Although my Grandma is 80 someting years old, but she is not old, her heart is young. I rather let her nag den no one nag mi, my parents already dun nag mi since I 10 years old onli my grandma nag mi, so pls god, let us look after her on behalf of u. I know ppl will die, but just let mi b greedy 1 time let her live as long as she can. I taking car license soon, let mi pass & I want to ride her wherever she wanna go. Even my mum I nv tt care of her, maybe she nv look after mi, from the day my nanny did not look after mi le, is my Grandma look after mi, both Grandma look after mi. So God, pls grant my wish.

1st of Nov 2007

2007-10-31T20:13:00.000-07:00

Today is the 1st day of Nov, my grandma is sill in the hospital tml she having operation. For mi, I having a serious toothache, think is over heaty, ytd I go AMK hub walk walk, den KC call mi but he say acc him tok, but I'm not free. I saw his frienster profile, he put his status Married, gd for him & good for mi, @ least I know he so fast find another gal, anyway I'm happy for him, will
gv him my blessing cos we r friend ma, but not tt gd friend, normal friend onli..

Hope my grandma will b fine & my toothache will recover soon, I wan go Clubbing... My colleague jioin to go MOS, OMG... Faster recover...

28 Oct 2007

2007-10-28T10:50:00.000-07:00

Today is a very sad day, my grandma is in hospital cos of heartbeat very slow, den Doc operation on her throat so that she can breathe properly. I call my cousin to inform her, I knw she was crying, so do i... I blame myself toking nonsense on Friday. Now den i know wats the feeling wen u nearly lose a love ones... Story is like tis, every Thurs & Fri she always came my hse till evening, den I was quite late for my wrk but she tell mi she vomiting & wen I touch her hand it was very cold even her legs oso.. den I go prepared my tings I go check on her again her face oso cold, wen i ask her will she cold yet she say no, den I quickly wake my sleeping Brother up, I say Ah ma like gg to ....... Mi & my big mouth, den today my father bring her to c doc, doc say her heartbeat very slow, no strength, need operation... On her throat, she is a gd Ah Ma, although nagging & troublesome but she is old yet I sumtimes still tok back to her, saying her nagging & troublesome. I still rem wen I was young she look after mi for fews year den after that my mom tt side grandma look after mi till I quite big..My mom grandma is @ Austrilla as my mom is an Austrilian so my grandma stay there. Now I hope my grandma recover soon & oso hope my mom tt side Grandma will come here for holiday or I hv the time & money I can go look for her in Aust to accompany her more...
God pls dun take my Ah Ma away... Pls..... I love my grandmas...
Pls treasure whoever is yr love one, dun wait till u g to or nearly lose them den u will regret...

27 Oct 2007 1.28am

2007-10-27T10:27:00.000-07:00

Today is a tiring night, I had spend my money all gone, I dunno even know wat i spending.. I just saw a comment which my sis gv mi, is not I dun wan to say, I reali dun feel like saying, I said le, i rather keep to myself be alone or wif Mary. Even Mary oso dun reali understand wat I'm tinking now. Everything come fast go oso fast, I onli hope u all get fine, b happy... we r all grown up as u say,but i nv ever forget on Yiling bday.. I make them cant slp ma, but I was sick, if I dun turn up, they will tink i giving excuses again, but wen I turn up wat did I get, get tease by them even Yiling brother, haha u know wat I did I just act blur & keep quiet all the way till the wedding finish. I dure it, onli Mary know that I was angry & dissapointed aldy. U should hv know cos wen u cum I oso nv tok to u ma, u oso like to tease mi, but I just keep quiet to prevent it. I still will avoid u all if I saw all of u.. Take care my sis...

25 Oct 2007 2.00AM

2007-10-25T10:55:00.000-07:00

Yeah, finally I can suft net @ hm. Just now went to Funan IT Mall to exchange my network card, I tot is my laptop problem, luckily is not.. Is so late le, but I still cant slp, Y,Y,Y????? Y like that? I should b sleeping now, tml got wrk.. i miss somebody... tinking of tml alot of thing to do.
Just now after i went to Funan, I go mit my sister Mary, we tok alot, I saw Jane I miss her, yesterday wen i saw her I feel like hugging her like we young times used to hug each other wen we r sad, Let mi group all of them by oldest to the youngest: Ah Gal the peaceful & the most nagging, San San the shortest & the most harsh type wen she drunk, Mi the sensitive type & petty type of cos the useless type, Big Winnie the sexy type bt now she having some problems hope she will b strong, Jane the funniest & lots of funny ideas she can hold her liquor very damn well lo, Small Winnie the most know how to entertain ppl although she like to tease mi which I dun like but I still keep her in my mind mean all of them, Mary she got lots of problems & dun like to KPO, she always wif mi wen I feeling very down or sad, Candy although know her not very well bt i treat her as sis too, she & Big Winnie fall out b4 but now ok le, I'm so happy for them, she is mummy now, hope she is doing very well, Yiling the bunny, oso gg to b mummy soon, & hv a caring husband & family, so envy her, she is the onli one, her wedding I was there till finish except staying @ the hotel. ( Am I describe correctly?) We used to do alot of things together, miss the days so much. Now I was avoiding them unless saw them I cant run away. But I will try not to appear in front of them, i dun wan them to shun mi again, I cannot take it, but even though mit up, oso nothing to tok. I onli wish to tell them I will keep them in my memories, my heart, even wen I died. Love u all sis forever.. We grow up together, fight, club, pubbing, pong-tang, ........ , of cos stay together awhile @ Yishun, haha it was fun, Jane will cook for us, cos she cook very nice. Her marcoroni, sambal kang kong, our most favorite, our pinic @ east coast, our sadness day @ Boat Quay, our fun @ DBL O.. Its was so fun cant tok finish all this thing. Sister forever....

飘雪 (中岛美嘉《雪之华》国语版) – 韩雪

2007-10-25T01:20:00.000-07:00

忧郁的一片天飘着纷飞的雪这一泓伊豆的温泉竟是我孤单的思念飘零的一片叶就像你我的终结这一泓伊豆的温泉充满温暖的从前你的手曾经拥着我的肩呢喃着爱我直到永远雪花像绽放的礼花天地间肆意地飘洒纵情在一霎那为何现在只剩下风吹乱我的发撕开我记忆的伤疤让往事像雾气慢慢地蒸发让我知道什么叫放不下为何我的泪会不停地流下滑过你曾经亲吻的脸颊所有的对错在顷刻崩塌忧郁的一片天飘着纷飞的雪这一泓伊豆的温泉竟是我孤单的思念飘零的一片叶就像你我的终结这一泓伊豆的温泉充满温暖的从前你的手曾经拥着我的肩呢喃着爱我直到永远雪花像绽放的礼花天地间肆意地飘洒纵情在一霎那为何现在只剩下风吹乱我的发撕开我记忆的伤疤让往事像雾气慢慢地蒸发让我知道什么叫放不下为何我的泪会不停地流下滑过你曾经亲吻的脸颊所有的对错在顷刻崩塌原来你带走了我生命的暖春盛夏就连旧的果实也只在梦境里悬挂原来寻找的是我自己难了的牵挂这泓伊豆的温泉是天给的惩罚如果知道结局我们还会相爱吗? 我猜不到你的回答冰雪中的誓言是真心的吗? 怎么此刻什么也没留下? 现在只剩下风吹乱我的发雪掩埋记忆的伤疤往事就像雾气慢慢地蒸发痛到麻木也许就放得下就让我的泪不停地去冲刷冲刷你曾经亲吻的脸颊伸出手像露珠一样的冰雪那瞬间的落花仿佛在记得你和我的爱情童话

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有一种爱叫做放手

2007-10-25T00:35:00.000-07:00

如果两个人的天堂象是温馨的墙囚禁你的梦想幸福是否象是一扇铁窗候鸟失去了南方如果你对天空向往渴望一双翅膀放手让你飞翔你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰听从凋谢的时光浪漫如果变成了牵绊我愿为你选择回到孤单缠绵如果变成了锁链抛开诺言有一种爱叫做放手为爱放弃天长地久我们相守若让你付出所有让真爱带我走为爱结束天长地久我的离去若让你拥有所有让真爱带我走说分手为了你失去你狠心扮演伤害你为了你离开你永远不分的离去

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25 Oct 2007

2007-10-25T00:27:00.000-07:00

Today its was a F**King day lo, I dun feel like saying le, otherwise I dunno how is HE gg to make mi angry.. HE dun wan mi to say her den ok, I dun say anymore, even stil love HIM or miss HIM, I just keep to my heart. Crying is damn tired..
Later I gonna go Funan IT mall veri sian, my friend dun wan acc mi, all not free.. I gonna fix my network card, if still not ok, I gonna throw the whole laptop le.. I tink I've been addict to drinking, keep wanna drink to make myself high or drunk, wun tink of upset things.. I dun like crying especially wen pppl or my friends ard, I rather hide in a corner to do it..
I just hear a song, 阿木 - 有一种爱叫做放手 is nice got meaning I feel its suit mi...

24 Oct 2007

2007-10-24T01:16:00.000-07:00

Today is my boss birthday, we went to Seletar to eat, we had a wonderful but long lunch there is so mani ppl so we got to wait very very long.. My boss confirm go DragonFly to celebrate his birthday, & will drink till Drunk hahaha.. I want to go but sianz leh, nobody acc mi hm.. I was wondering tonight wanna go Dbl O or not, nobody acc mi as everyone is wrking or either acc BF or hubby, so I'm alone.. Muz ask my buddy. Brandon Li to go, but dunno he wanna go or not. Another thing oso scared the next day confim hangover like hell man. I miss SOMEONE..
Suddenly feel life is bored, dunno wat to do, gonna find school soon le, to fufil my dreams...
Next year gonna enroll otherwise will miss the Intake..

23 Oct 2007 (3.24pm)

2007-10-23T00:23:00.000-07:00

I was very angry I tell myself not to c HIS profile but I cannot control myself, yet I'm right, HIS featured friends already being replaced by other young & Cutie gals, HE confirm say is HIS god-Sis, haha very funny. Forget it, I knew it, slowly HE will got a new GAL of cos I hope HE will find a stable wan, not sensitive like mi & will not throw temper on HIM, I wan HIM to b happy instead of HE hope mi to b happy..... I & that guy is nothing lo, yr turn to wake up, U say le ma, you got new gal wat. Anyway that night I already treat u dun love mi anymore le, this is wat u wan & expected.. I gg Bugis next week, yr new gal @ there ma, working... I wun disturb u or her, I have no right to say anything...

23 Oct 2007

2007-10-22T18:41:00.000-07:00

Hee, today I nv late for my wrk cos maybe I last nite nv go out ba, my friend ask mi go Boat Quay but I very tired.. My laptop stil spoilt I very bei chey.. Finally my company MSN can use, my friend, Elaine which my best friend @ Motorola she help mi do fix it... I & my friends decided to go Hong Kong either Dec or Jan, but as I scared cold, we go on next year Dec, cos Nov is too rush.. We might go in a group, haha, I dun wan my friend to mistook that I & him... Cos I stil miss HIM, love HIM.. But forget it, I dun feel like tinking anyting which is impossible.. Cos I know is impossible.. Wondering how is HE, cos I know HE is sick but I know got lots of young gals will tk care HIM lo, HE ask mi dun say anything bout HIM den ok, from today onwards u wun c HE or HIM in my blog le.. I will try very best to be happy.. Even cant is oso like that, as long as I know HE is happy can le.. HE now BUSY doing jisaw puzzle for HIS GODSISTER ma.. Or sending friendster comment to J......... here & there... I dun bother anymore le, to prevent myself to get angry...Tml Wed again, Boat Quay again or Dbl O, tml Halloween nite ba.. Scared to drink again, cos next day always hangover.. Blah

22 Oct 2007

2007-10-22T03:01:00.001-07:00

I was so angry my network card is spoilt, I cannot suft net @ hm... Sob Sob.. Now I @ my wrk plc playing game, later meeting my sis.. Yeah, my friend ask mi go Hong Kong, he say he sponser mi evrything exept Air-Ticket.. Maybe Nov I can go ba, but muz settle here 1st den go for holiday, maybe I go for short holiday I will forget HIM, I noe my friend treat mi veri gd but no feelingn so let it natural ba. I just hope everything will b fine to mi or HIM.. I wish HE will find a new gf anyway can la, now HE know a new gal ma @ Bugis, ppl so young wat, anyway I hv no right to get jealous or angry.. HE happy can le.. There is nothing to do wif mi anymore le.. Its Over...

19 Oct 2007 Saddening Day

2007-10-18T19:19:00.000-07:00

I was surprised that my sis will msg mi, this is wat she send mi.
"Hi my dear Mei,juz gone thru yr blog..reali hapi n glad tt u r missin us..i duno wat reali happen..N mks u drifted fm us further n further away..all of us hv known ea other 4 such e long time..been thru so much..smiles n sorrows..N i'm sure tt u wun b able 2 4gt..and WE wil nv eva b able 2 4gt as wel.wat i can say is,misunderstand,lack of communication,short of understandin..dun avoid fm us..u can juz let yrself out by lettin us understand wat u tink,wat u wans..instead of keepin evrytin to yrself..avoidin us..stop contactin us..such e long time sistership, is nt meant 2 b forgotten like tt..al of us sld try..2 understand..salvage wateva bad situation..rite??Mei,dun u stil rem those daes...those sweet n memorable daes at AMK?wher we fight..we drink..we play..hv al e whole of fun n laughters at AMK?pls Mei,dun gif up like tt..we r stil ther for u..and tt's wat sisters r for...we stil care..and we r concern abt u...at least little of hw r u recently fm others wil oso mks us feels beta..'an xin'. at least we noe tt u r fine..as wel as yr 2 boys..Mei....we can tok tings out..reali hope tt we can go bk ot those days..those unforgetable days...can we??? REM 5157312 ^_^"

I oso wish to b like last time, but is too late... The day after Yiling wedding I already told myself forget it le, I seen through everyone.. Of cos I stil miss u all & love u all, but all this I rather keep in to myself. I not like last time le, everything wil say out..

Love u all always .

18 Oct 2007 Hangover Day

2007-10-18T02:11:00.000-07:00

Today I late for my wrk cos last nite I went to O Point for a drink den after that I go Dbl O... I was damn drunk but my sister, Winnie was more drunk den mi. I went to office keep vomiting lo, cannot tahan.... Winnie nv go wrk as I call her she nv answer my call, haiz.. Last nite my ex called mi, he say wanna patch up, but I was confused so I just keep quiet, I do not know watt to do... I still love HIM.. I know we r inpossible but just let it b wat to do, after my this HI-card no money l, I gonna change my number, & gv those who recently close to mi onli. Not those who sian den will call wan... I saw Terance Cao last nite too, he was wif those Ah Beng lo, he very beng oso.. He not that handsome oso lo, so different in TV & outside.. Guys r like that lo.. Now I just wish I got lots of money dne enuff le, as for HIM, HE wanna cum bk HE will. If is mine, is mine.. If HE reali find mi, HE will hv a way to find mi...

sad time

2007-10-16T09:05:00.000-07:00

HE msn mi le, saying sumting which I wanna hear very long... I reali miss HIm, HE tink I will forget HIM easily meh.. My heart is so pain til I dunno how to breathe properly. I been tinking of HIM since last thurs. My jealously is strong, I'm too sensitive this wan I admit.. Now if HE can tahan, I reali happi, if cannot I rather to let go HIM, not to let HIM stress... I know HE was endure my temper, but on Thurs nite I've been trying to save our relationship but HE insisted den wat can I do. Beg HIM meh, cant rite? I onli respect his decision. In my heart, there is a scar, need the person who make it to cure it, otherwise I will go crazy all the way... My temper will b more worst den last time.

15 Oct 2007

2007-10-15T09:53:00.000-07:00

Today I was @ hm after that I go mit my sis, Mary.. I was in a bad mood but luckily she is ard mi. Sat I went to O point for a drink wif my friends, I'm gg crazy, I feel like drinking, drink til drunk den go hm reali slp well instead of think other ting, of cos is HIM. I saw the comment HE gv mi, he stated: sorry baby.. i realli did try loving you with all my heart.. haiz.. but realli we have a gap between us.. and u being sensitive.. have made e gap even bigger.. humph.. sorry sorry... Is sorry enuff I dun tink so! I gg crazy le, I used to HIM... Every morning I will saw his msg, & I reali used to it, is wif HIM, hearing HIM calling Baby, but now no more. I hate HIM more now... I oso still love HIM more... Wait for HIM, dun tink so le ba. I just wanna tel him, if reali love mi, pls cherish mi, if dun love mi anymore le, leave mi alone..

11 Oct 2007

2007-10-12T09:43:00.000-07:00

Today I very sad damn sad, mi & HIM is over, I'm too senstive, HE is a gd guy is onli I dun trust HIM. HE bring mi to watch movies, den there is a bitch msg HIM, wen I ask who msg HIM, HE tel mi is my god bro, HOck, wen I found out is actually a gal, I so angry till I nv tok to HIM at all. I msg HIM wanna broke off, yet HE say ok lo. HE say HE cannot tahan his gf to b too sensitive, I admit but is too late, HE msg mi say: We give each other some time to tink whether we r suitable anot.. Now we stop seein each other first. Sorry. I know HE do not wish to b wif mi @ all le, cos HE oso younger wif mi quite big gap. Maybe young gals suit HIM, I've nothing to say, Cos I very sad. I cry the whole nitez couldnt slp. I'm sorry I too senstive...